Page 56 of Sins of the Flesh
Me:
You know what I’m going to ignore that!
Me:
It was magic.I can't imagine it being better than that!
I
finally had sex, and I can confidently say I'm definitely a bottom.Obviously, I have never tried topping, but I don't mind living without it.Caleb is a fantastic top.I know, I know, I have no point of comparison.But honestly, if the man of your dreams fucked you, wouldn't it be amazing even if it wasn't?
Caleb made me feel safe, cherished, and utterly turned out.I don't think anyone could ask for more from a sexual experience.I look forward to many more sexual experiences with the man who is fast becoming my everything.I'm pretty sure I started falling for him long ago.But every moment I spend with him brings me closer to falling completely over the precipice.
And my man is a swoony mother fucker, too.Rose petals and candles, come on.Is that even real life?Do people really do that kind of shit?I mean, Caleb did, but Caleb isn't “people.”Caleb is an anomaly, a rare jewel I was lucky enough to have any part of.I don't know why he chose me, but I'll fight every day to prove he made a good choice.
It's the Monday after and my brain is so wrapped up in what happened all I want to do is see Caleb.Drink in his warmth and deep voice.I don’t even think Charlotte can affect my mood today.Coming out of the bathroom in the chapel I head to the door on the other side of the stage.I stop and stare at the stage.I know I will never look at it the same after Saturday.It will always hold the magic of my first time with Caleb.
I go to push open the door when I hear hushed voices just on the other side, so I halt leaving the door open to just a small crack.I can barely make out Charlotte and her assistant, the same girl from the day of the fake fainting spell.I have no proof it was fake but I’ll die on that hill if anyone asks.
The girl looks like she's trembling as Charlotte towers over her in her six inch stilettos, grasping the girls shoulders shaking her.“What have you done?”
The girl cries out “I’m sorry.”
Charlotte clutches the girl's chin forcing her to look at her, “Go clean up your mess.I don't want to have this conversation again.”
The girl nods emphatically “Yes ma’am.”The girl drops her head and hastily retreats.Charlotte peers around the hall and I hold my breath, then she disappears into the doorway of the fellowship hall.
I wonder what that was about?No doubt that bitch torturing her staff again, the crazy wench.I shake my head and go back to the kitchen itching for it to finally be 12 o’clock.
I check my watch, fucking finally lunch time, it takes a huge amount of restraint not to run to the breakroom.But when I clear the doorway I start rethinking my excitement.I walk in to find Charlotte's arms around Caleb's neck, his palm on her back.I can tell she's leaning back looking at him.
“You're allowed to have bad days, it hasn't been that long since you lost George.”Caleb says in his achingly sweet voice.
“Oh Caleb, I don't know what I would do without you.”She hugs him tightly and I clear my throat to make my presence known.They jump apart and alarm bells go off.It's pretty common for Charlotte to be all over Caleb but to jump apart that's suspicious.The look on Caleb's face is pure guilt and my stomach drops.
“What's up?”I ask my tone sharper than intended.
Sheepishly Caleb clutches his neck, “I invited Charlotte to join us for lunch, she's been feeling lonely.”Oh I bet she fucking has.“She brought sandwiches.”He gestures to a bag on the table as if it makes up for her pushing into our lunches together.
“Oh no, Caleb I-I didn't know Cole would be joining.I only have two sandwiches.”She gives me the fakest apologetic look I have ever seen and if it was legal to strangle a bitch to death I would definitely do it right now.I know damn well she had no intention on me joining them for lunch.
I clench and unclench my fists.“Maybe you can grab a sandwich at the gas station.We can wait for you.”Charlotte offers and even though it doesnt sound condescending it sure as fuck feels it.
Caleb looks torn but what else is new “You can have half of mine Cole.”He offers but I’ve lost my appetite.
“Don't trouble yourself.I have work to do anyways.”I grumble barely holding on to the small thread of sanity that I have left.I turn on my heel and storm out the door towards the parking lot, not the kitchen where my work is.
Grumbling to myself as I walk to my truck, I could swear my head is letting off smoke I’m so fucking angry.“Cole, wait up,” I hear Caleb yell behind me.I ignore him and keep walking until I open the door to my truck and sit in the driver's seat.He grabs it before I can close it.
"Cole, please," Caleb says, his voice low and urgent."Don't go.Let's talk about this."I glare at him, my anger and frustration boiling over.
"Talk about what, Caleb?How you can't see what's right in front of your face?How that woman is constantly trying to get between us and you just let her?"I scream pointing towards the church.
Caleb's brow furrows."Cole, I know Charlotte has been...a bit clingy, but she's just grieving.You're reading too much into this."I laugh bitterly.
"Am I?She’s not who you think she is Caleb.She abuses her staff, like physically.”Caleb's eyes widen in surprise."And that fainting bit was fake.She did it to get you alone at her house."I seethe.
“Cole, what are you saying?”Caleb asks his voice low.I take a deep breath, trying to calm myself.
