Page 44 of Finding Jacob
“Get in the front,” Jacob said, although it was more of a command growled out by him.
I did as I was told, getting more aroused with each passing second.
“Remove your panties,” he added as he climbed into the driver’s seat. Again, I did as instructed.
Jacob pulled the car out into the traffic and navigated his way through London without so much as a word. I could hear his breathing, however. It was laboured. His jaw was tight, working side to side, a muscle pulsed in his temple. I turned slightly in my seat and pulled my dress to my waist. He glanced at me several more times when I swiped my fingers over my opening.
He struggled to keep his eyes on the road and despite how reckless it was of us both, I loved he couldn’t do exactly what he wanted to me. The obvious bulge in his trousers, the laboured breath, and the way he licked his lips turned me on. I parted my legs farther and leaned back, forcing my pussy closer to him. He reached for me, patting my hand away and plunging two fingers inside me.
“Jesus, Anna,” he said through gritted teeth. “So wet.”
A car beeped and Jacob swerved one handed. He laughed but didn’t stop fingering me. I couldn’t care less if we were seen, although the side windows were tinted, the front wasn’t. I moaned as he twisted and stroked, forcing his fingers in as deep as he could. I grabbed his hand forcing it closer, rubbing myself against him. Just the feel of his palm against me heightened my arousal. I felt frantic and tears pricked at my eyes. It was a totally new sensation to me, I was wracked with desire, so much so that my stomach hurt. I desperately needed his cock inside me, his fingers weren’t enough.
“God, I need more,” I said breathlessly. I heard him chuckle.
He swerved into a public car park and drove to the farthest, darkest corner. The public car parks in London could be a bit grim but it didn’t seem that he cared. He turned the car engine off, locked the doors, and slid back his seat. Before he had released his cock fully, I was on him. I had scooted over the centre console and straddled his lap; thankful the luxurious car was spacious.
I lowered myself on him while he gripped my arse cheeks. He dug his fingers in and I rode him hard. I slammed into his lap over and over, sliding my legs apart as far as I could. I threw my head back, closed my eyes, and moaned over and over. I couldn’t remember a time when I felt so hot, so wanton, and so needy. I was desperate.
“More,” I said.
Without answering, he slid his thumb over my clitoris. He pinched and I yelped at the same time as a wave of desire and heat rolled over me. Sweat rolled down my back, down my chest, and he palmed one of my very tender breasts. He licked up my throat and under my chin.
As I was about to come, I gripped the sides of his face and kissed him hard. He swallowed my moans and took the breath from my lungs. I came and came, like I’d never before. I could feel the wetness drip from me, my stomach clenched, and my chest ached.
“Oh God,” I croaked out the words.
“No, just Jacob,” he replied, kissing the side of my neck and chuckling.
I rested my forehead down on his shoulder. “There is nothingjustabout you,” I whispered.
I soaked in the bath after being dropped home by Jacob. He didn’t come in and I was glad. I needed to get my head around the day. I also needed to decide how to move forward. I hadn’t anticipated on Jacob suggesting we move in together, or the fact he didn’t like my house. I wasn’t sure about there being a suitable compromise, either. My head began to pound and I sank lower, allowing the hot water to cover my shoulders.
I feltfull,contented,satedI guessed would be the correct terms. I smiled as I thought about our most delicious ten minutes in the car. There was no doubt we had lust for each other, but was it love? It was way too soon, I imagined, for love. But there was something about Jacob that had me drawn to him, and it wasn’t just his body. He had charm, for sure. He was commanding without demeaning, old-fashioned without being stifling, and passionate.
He had also lost his wife because of his job.
I sat up, the water sloshing over the sides of the bath. I instinctively placed my hands over my bump. I felt my baby stir, perhaps roll over to get more comfortable. The fear I felt for my child chilled me.
Could I enter a relationship with someone who worked in such a dangerous industry?
I climbed out the bath and chuckled at how awkward I was. I wasn’t that far gone and already felt like a whale. I was gaining curves. As I was naturally slender, to the point people thought I had an eating disorder, considering what I could consume. I hoped I’d gain some weight all over. My weight had been an issue my whole life. I’d had various tests without any conclusion, my metabolism was just high. When friends moaned about being overweight, I could only be envious of them.
Sitting on the bed, I thought some more. Life wasn’t going to be as straightforward as I’d hoped. Although, I imagined my version of straightforward as a single parent wasn’t realistic at all. I had always been a rose-tinted glasses type of girl.
I dried my body and slathered on moisturiser, pulled on some panties, and slipped a T-shirt over my head. I lay on top of my duvet since I was too hot to crawl underneath. I wanted to sleep, I became desperate for it, but my brain wouldn’t stop whirling. I thought of how shitty my family was, how they couldn’t even see what my sister had done was terrible. I felt both angry and sad at the same time. I didn’t have a problem with cutting off family, I wasn’t that person who believed I had to endure their crap simply because they were blood related. I would miss my dad, however, but he had a mouth, a pair of balls, and he should be using them.
As the hours ticked by, I had resolved my family issue in my head. I’d have no contact from now on, other than one letter I’d write to my parents to explain why I was cutting off contact. As for my sister, she could go to hell as far as I was concerned.
Jacob popped into my thoughts on a regular basis, he calmed me. However, as the sun began to rise, I also realised that it might not be easy to have a relationship with him. Our worlds were too far apart, and his wife played heavily on my mind. Maybe if I knew a little more it might help, but I wasn’t sure it was up for discussion.
Typically, as the sun rose, so I dozed off.
I was jolted awake by a shake to my arm.
“What the...?” I sat up abruptly, my vision blurry and my heart racing.
“I was getting worried,” I heard. I rubbed my eyes until Nathan came into focus.
