Page 58 of Jackson
With her in my arms, her hand on my chest, and her head in the crook of my neck, it was the best night’s sleep I’d had indays.
* * *
Iwoke before her.We had shifted positions in the night. She was facing away from me and I had my arms wrapped around her. I shifted my body slightly away; I didn’t want her to feel my hard-on against her backside. The scent of her hair comforted me. I breathed in deep before sighing. I had no idea what the future held for us. She had to leave soon and I knew I’d have to follow. I couldn’t live in the U.S. and have her back in the UK. Whether I could follow in a few days’ time was something I was unsure of. The day I set foot back on UK soil was the day I would have conquered my urges. In one way I was glad she was leaving, it gave me a goal to worktowards.
She stirred and turned in my arms. Her eyelids fluttered open and I watched as shesmiled.
“Good morning,” Isaid.
“Morning to you, too. Do we have to getup?”
“We do. I have torun.”
“Haveto?”
“Yep. I need to get the blood pumping around my cock right now to pump someplaceelse.”
Her eyes widened before shelaughed.
“Wecould…”
“No, Summer. The next time I have you naked underneath me will be because I want to make love to you, not fuck you. And I need to work on that urge, like rightnow.”
I rolled from the bed and strode to the bathroom. Pissing was hard with a cock that wanted nothing more than to be embedded deep inside her. I changed my shorts, pulled on my trainers and smiled at her as I headed for the beach. I ran, dodging early walkers and dogs. I ran until the sweat rolled from my body and adrenalin pumped around my system. I ran until the blood that had kept my cock rock hard, was diverted to my needyheart.
When I arrived back at the house, Summer was in the kitchen. Music was playing and she was making herself tea. I jogged up the steps to the balcony and she smiled at me through thedoor.
“Coffee?” sheasked.
“Sure. I need a shower firstthough.”
I headed to my bedroom and stripped off my shorts. I stood under the jets of water, and despite my run, it took no more than a thought to have my cock hard again. I stroked, I pleasured myself until I came. It wasn’t entirely satisfactory, but woulddo.
Summer had a coffee ready for my return and I took asip.
“Want to come to the bar tonight?” Iasked.
“Sure, is it open everynight?”
“No, just Thursday, Friday, and Saturdays for now. I don’t think Dex could cope withmore.”
“Will Honey be there?” She hesitated over herwords.
“I imagine so. If she thinks I’ll be there, then she’ll turn up. I need to talk to her, Summer. I’m not sure what Dex has told you so far, but I need to tell her that there’ll be nomore.”
She didn’t speak for a little while. She did however pick up her tea and my hand and led me outside to sit. She snuggled with me on thedaybed.
“It’s okay. I agree that you need to talk to her. I don’t think just walking away from her is helpful, to either of you. I know what you do, with her, and I can’t think that much about it. I understand; I don’t like it, obviously. I’d never put choices in front of you, but I can’t share you with her,” Summersaid.
She hadn’t looked at me all the time she had spoken and I appreciated herhonesty.
“You know it was never a relationship, don’tyou?”
“I do, I understand, sort of. I feel sorry for her, Jack. I wish she would gethelp.”
“Dexter tried for a long time with her but she’s too destructive. She needs me and for a while I needed her. I don’t want to feel that needanymore.”
“That scares me a little. You’ve thrown away that blade and you’re cutting yourself off from her. How do you release your anger, your frustrationnow?”
