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“Come on,” she sighs. “You can’t be that naive to think that people don’t notice.”
“There’s nothing to notice. It can’t ever happen, Brielle, so just drop it.”
She crosses her arms, “I just wish you’d finally admit it to me, Colson. We’ve fucked around for two years and you couldn’t commit. I want to hear you say that she’s the reason why. You owe me that at least, don’t you think? The fucking truth?”
“Fine,” I snap. “It’s her. It always has been and it always will be.”
“See,” she huffs, waving her arms, nearly causing a scene. “Was that so fucking hard?”
I notice the eyes starting to turn in our direction, so I pull her away from the crowd so we can talk without an audience. “Why are you acting like this? I thought you were talking to Hayden again?”
Her ex. The one she would throw up in our conversations when I would tell her I didn’t want a relationship.
She throws her hands up, “God Colson, you are sostupid. Hayden isn’t fucking real. You have just been too blinded by Lincoln this whole time to notice.”
I stare at her with a blank expression. I feel really fucking guilty. I never wanted to date Brielle. I told her that from the beginning but I also didn’t expect to look like a dick in the end. Without even meaning to, I’ve led her on.
“I’m sorry, Bri. I didn’t know. I can’t… I just, I don’t…”
She stops me before I can get another word out. “Don’t do that Colson. I’ve heard the same shit for a long ass time. I get it. You never promised me anything but thanks for finally telling me the truth.”
I shake my head, “I didn’t mean to hurt you. I swear I didn’t mean to.”
Lifting her tiny frame up to her tip toes, she plants a soft kiss to my jawline and walks away.
My heart sinks.
Not because I love her, but because not only does my love for Lincoln hurt me, it hurts other people too.
I hurt Brielle because I love Lincoln. Is that what it will always be? A never ending cycle of me lying to myself when only one girl can really keep my attention?
“You wanna go with me and Mira to the bar in town? Some of her friends are meeting us there. They are really fucking hot.”
Reiss’ voice interrupts my thoughts and I wave him off.
“No. I have to train tomorrow if I am going to be ready to ride in time.”
He gives me a look that saysyeah right.
“I am,” I sigh, looking over to where Landon isstanding with his band of idiots. “Only one month and I can’t let that guy make a fool out of me.”
“Ok,” Reiss sighs. “Ryan went with dad to go pick up one of the bikes we had built for Nationals. Who are you going to train with? I’m not allowed to ride on Saturdays. Ryan will kill me.”
I look around the party, and my eyes settle on my partner in crime.
“Maybe Lincoln, but don’t worry about it bro. I’ll figure it out.”
27
Lincoln
“I’m not fucking getting it, Colson. Who am I kidding? There is no way anyone is gonna believe I’m you.”
I slam my helmet down on the table in the shop. “Your bike is faster than mine. I swear Dad has my bike governed or something.”
He chuckles, “He probably does but you are doing fine. We’ve only been at it for one day. You know how I ride like the back of your hand.”
“What happens if we get caught?” I ask.
