Page 1 of A Deviant Spinster for the Duke
CHAPTER ONE
“Ican tell you enjoy this music,” the dull voice said. “You cannot help but sway to it, though I have not yet urged you to dance with me. I do believe you are trying to tempt me, Miss Maxwell.”
Tempt you?
Valeria glanced at the gentleman in front of her, having half-forgotten that he was standing there. “I do not know that ‘urging’ someone is the appropriate way to ask for a dance, nor that you should use such incendiary language as ‘tempting,’ as if I have any intent toward you.” She sighed. “Perhaps, I am swaying to this very fine music because I would rather dance with myself, undisturbed. There is no temptation whatsoever.”
The gentleman chuckled, though she did not miss the tightness of uncertainty that choked the sound, as if he had not quite decided if she was jesting or not.
“You are rather amusing for a woman,” he said.
“Ah, it is curious to me how often I have been described as ‘amusing’, when what a gentleman really means to say is ‘strange’ or ‘unbecoming.’ I do wonder why you are not simply honest, to spare us both the trouble of skirting around a mutual disinterest.”
He blinked at that, his smile stiffening. “Pardon?”
“I am five-and-twenty,” she replied evenly. “You are at least a decade older. There are countless younger ladies at this ball, yet you have chosen to approachme. It reeks of desperation, of coercion and insistence from an external force. Your mother or father, I assume. They have nudged you toward me because, at my age, I must also be desperate—is that not so?”
He seemed frozen, his mouth agape as though she had struck him with her palm instead of the obvious truth.
“I am sure you are very pleasant,” she continued with a sigh. “I am sure that you will make some anxious wallflower a fine husband, but I am bored of this rigmarole. Go on and flatter some other lady who will appreciate your efforts.”
As she had suspected he might, the gentleman transformed before her eyes. One moment, he was smiling and all politeness; the next, he wore a scowl that twisted any of his handsomeness into something cold and ugly.
“You ought to be grateful for my attention,” he hissed, his cheeks reddening with the source of his vitriol: embarrassment. “Do you think I relish the notion of settling for a woman who is past her best? Do you think it was my choice to approach you?”
Valeria rolled her eyes. “You did not listen to a word I said, did you? I already stated that I do not think it was your choice to approach me, which is whyIhave just urgedyouto take your attempts at flattery elsewhere.”
He scoffed, the red in his cheeks deepening with each second. “You are… a very rude woman, Miss Maxwell. Rude, unbecoming, and yes, very strange indeed. I should not have wasted a moment on you.”
“That is what I was saying!” she replied, adding a stifled groan.
It was the same at every ball or gathering where she encountered these sorts of gentlemen; they simply did not listen to her, even when she was trying to save them from misplacing their attention and effort. They had to believe that the idea of them abandoning their suit was somehow theirs, too appalled by the notion thattheywere being rejected to permit it.
“If you were younger, perhaps your attitude might be more acceptable, but you are far too old to behave as if you have options,” the man retorted—resorting, as they always did, to what they thought might wound her.
What they did not realize was that she was more or less impervious after seven years in society. Seven years ofdisappointments, seven years of balls and parties and dinners and soirées that left her hollow and exasperated by the state of the marriageable male population. Seven years of discovering that she preferred to spend such evenings in the company of her two dearest friends, who were a guarantee of a joyful time, where she did not have to be anything other than herself.
The trouble was, those two friends were married now. Wives and mothers: two roles that had no choice but to push the title of ‘friend’ down the list of priorities.
“Are you satisfied?” Valeria asked the gentleman with a patient smile.
He baulked. “Pardon?”
“Do you feel as if you have chided me enough to maintain your pride?” She tilted her head to one side. “If so, you may leave.”
For a moment, he looked like he might explode with the outrage that burned in his face, his eyes ablaze with fury. His mouth opened and closed as though he meant to launch into a scathing tirade, but no sound emerged. She had shocked his throat into silence and, as such, he turned sharply on his heel and marched off without a word.
She exhaled wearily in the peace of his absence, wishing fervently that Isolde and Amelia—her dearest friends in all the world—were there to laugh and chatter with. She did not blame them for putting their children and husbands before societyevents and keeping her company, but it did not stop her from missing them terribly.
I should visit. I should abandon London and visit. I should spend a month with Amelia, and a month with Isolde.It was a lovely thought, soundly disrupted by her father appearing at her side, a nervous hand coming to rest on her shoulder.
“Valery…” he said quietly, his voice laced with worry.
“I know, I know,” she replied, shaking her head.
“You cannot be so… stern with them, my dear,” Aaron urged. “I do not think you realize how intimidating you can be. If you were to… soften yourself just a little, I think it would be to your benefit.”
Valeria could not look at him. It was the only thing thatcouldinjure her, to hear her father asking her to change who she was and how she behaved. For five-and-twenty years, she had grown accustomed to the luxury of being herself; she was finding it difficult to adapt to performing a role that did not fit, like wearing too-tight shoes that pinched and hobbled her.
