Page 57 of Finding Noah
Hell, I do love this man.
Inthatway.
I wanted to shout it, but Christian wouldn’t believe me. He’d think this was a sex thing—and so I’d just have to find other ways to show him.
Withdraw.
Thrust.
Pull out almost to the tip.
Push home again.
Only to no home I’d ever known. Even through our panted, mingled breaths something shifted.
“Noah.”
I refocused my attention. Back into this moment. I snagged his erect cock and tugged to the rhythm I set. “I need you to come, baby. Okay?” Because I was on the verge, and rarely did I come before my partners. I’d always focus on their pleasure.
“Yes.” He hissed out the word even as he came in my hand, spurting cum everywhere.
I tried to nurse him through the orgasm, even as I came myself. I went rigid, held still, and let the climax wash over me. Envelop me. Send me soaring above the earth in the most mind-shattering orgasm I’d ever had. Why? Why with him? Why now?
Because you’ve never had this connection with someone before. Because this is what true love feels like.
I’d told Leroy I’d loved him—had believed that. Folly. Bullshit. I’d thought if I said it, then I could manifest it. Turned out, if someoneelse manifested it, it might’ve just rubbed off on me. I collapsed on top of Christian.
He was a solid guy, and he held me close.
I rested my cheek on his sternum and listened to the pounding of his heart. I’d no doubt in my mind that he’d enjoyed this as much as I had.
“That was…” He let out a long exhalation.
I tilted my head so I could meet his gaze. “Yeah?”
He blinked repeatedly, then a tear slid down his temple and into his burnished gold-and-auburn-colored hair.
“Don’t cry.” I levered myself so I could roll off him and pull him—admittedly awkwardly—into my arms.
He hiccupped as another tear rolled down.
I pressed a kiss to his temple, tasting the salty residue of the now-flowing tears. I didn’t know how to stem them—I didn’t have the words. I was certain this wasn’t a physical thing—he’d had pleasure. No, this was emotional…the one thing I was no good at.
He blew out a breath. “I don’t mean to cry. I just—” He sniffed. “—I’m so glad I waited, Noah. That you were the first. And I know it didn’t mean to you what it meant to me—”
I placed my index finger on his lips. “Hush. You don’t know what it meant to me because I haven’t shared. It means everything, Christian. I can honestly say I’ve never connected with someone like that before. And I don’t know what this means—it’s too raw.” I smiled. “I’m going to clean us up, then tuck you in for the night.”
“You’ll stay?”
“Of course I’ll stay.” I kissed him soundly. Then I carefully removed the condom and knotted it off. I rolled off the bed and headed to the bathroom.
Huh.
I put the condom in the trash and then put the trash can on the counter. No way was I leaving it anywhere the dogs might get into it.
If you get tested, then you could go bareback.
Well, fuck me. I got tested regularly—smart thing to do. But I’d never considered going bareback with anyone.
