Page 66 of Foul Territory
“No. That’s what I’ve done. Now if you’ll excuse me.” I attempt to slip past him but he stops me with a hand on my waist.
“Why are you lying to me? To yourself?”
“I’m not. I’ve moved on. There’s someone else.”
“You can’t be serious. Why him?”
I’m not sure how he knows about the guy I’m talking to online. Maybe Lauren said something to Hart and he mentioned it to Koa? It doesn’t really matter how he found out. I’m telling him now anyway.
“Because he is nice. He listens to me. He doesn’t tell me what to do and boss me around all the time. For example, when he sees me in this dress, he won’t ask me to change.” I make a mental note to snap a picture before I go downstairs and send it to Online Joe. Maybe I need to take the first step in revealing more about myself to get him to do the same.
“Do you want to know what I think about the way you look in this dress?” he asks. I shake my head. I’m scared. I feel confident and I don’t want him to ruinit.
“It doesn’t matter.” I try to leave again but his grip only tightens. “Koa, let me go.” He drops his hand and I miss his touch already.Stupid hormones.
“It does to me. Everything about you matters to me,” he says, leaning so close his face is a breath away. “You look beautiful. You always do. But this…” his finger slips underneath the thin strap on my shoulder. He drags his finger down my chest and stops just below the bow holding my boobs in place. “This is going to plague me. I won’t be able to stop thinking about how sexy you look right now.”
“Why are you telling me this now when everything in my life is going good? Don’t you want me to be happy?”
“That’s how we got here. I wanted everyone to be happy, but you’re not. I’m not either.” He tips my chin to get my full attention. I swat his hand away when he doesn’t let go. “I’ve seen you happy and this isn’t it. Let me make you happy again.”
“You don’t have the ability to do that anymore. All you do is make me feel like crap for the decisions I make. I want to be with someone who makes me feel good about myself. That isn’t you.”
“Let me prove it to you. Let me be that man for you.”
I step out of his reach even though my body aches to move closer. “I already told you. It’s too late. You had your chance to be that man and you tried to break me instead.”
Walking away from Koa should make me feel good. I’m leaving on my terms. It’s my choice but why does it feel like the wrong one?
FICTION FORUM
FaeAtHeart
How did your apology go?
NotYourAverageJoe19
Not as well as I had hoped.
FaeAtHeart
What did she say when you said you were sorry?
NotYourAverageJoe19
You know. Now that I think about it, I never actually said the words.
FaeAtHeart
You need to do that immediately.
Who is she?
NotYourAverageJoe19
An old friend.
FaeAtHeart
