Page 81 of In You
I nod, giving him a watery smile. "Okay," I hiccup. "Thank you because I'm itchy."
Mr. Calvin and daddy chuckle. And daddy goes down to his knees in front of me, and he does make the itch feel better. Igiggle because I knew he would. I knew my daddy would come kiss and make it better.
Mr. Calvin gives me a little kiss and then nuzzles my nose with his. "I love you, Cunty. You make me so proud."
"I love you! Can I eat now? I'm hungry."
Daddy leaves the room, making me sad.
Mr. Calvin nods and then gets off the bed, I hear him putting food in my bowl while I pull my dress down and then I stretch, yawning. Walking over to him and bending down to grab my toy off the floor. I look up at Mr. Calvin.
"Mr. Calvin, where did my daddy go?"
He chucks me under my chin. "He'll be right back. Eat your food."
I lower to my knees and bend down to the bowl, but before I can finish, another man comes through the door that isn't my daddy that just left.
My brows scrunch. "He doesn'tlooklike my daddy."
Mr. Calvin places a kiss on my forehead. "I found another daddy for you."
I gasp. "I havetwodaddies?"
He chuckles. "Yes, you have two daddies."
I look at the man and then smile. "Hi, daddy!"
He goes to his knees and pats my thigh. Laying on my back, I spread them, giggling.
"Hi, Cunty. How's daddy's little girl?"
I wake up screaming. Shaking and fighting with the bedcovers tangled around my legs.
Sunlight streams brightly through the window.
"Hey, hey.Hey!"Caleb says, waking me up out of it. My eyes go wide and then I swallow thickly trying to unlock my throat. His eyes go to mine and I feel my face is wet with tears. I scratch at my neck, trying to force my voice out, digging my nails into the skin. My heart pounds, and my mind races, but no matter how fast my mind races, I can't remember the dream. "What's wrong?What's wrong, baby?"he asks, his worried eyes flickering between mine.
I gasp as cold sweat sticks my clothes to my body. My teeth begin to chatter. "I don't know," I say in a strained voice, curling my fingers into his t-shirt and gripping tightly. "I-I don't know."
My face breaks as I begin ugly crying, my heart racing even as my body refuses to let go
It's like Sarah said; the mind may suppress, but the body keeps the score.
Caleb curses softly, turning on the bedside lamp and then pushes Ringo away so he can get out of bed. Even Tink coming up to my chest and curling under my chin doesn't help. She lays there, whining, as he walks to the dresser across from the bed.
"Oh my Goddd!" I say miserably, rocking myself side to side in the bed while he roots around for a nightgown.
He snatches one up, quickly coming to my side and helping me out of my sweat soaked clothes. When he's done I'm starting to come out of my anxiety attack, and shame starts to creep in where fear took up all my space. My chin trembles as I stare up at him helplessly. Into the eyes of this man who is just as broken as me, who needs to be focusing on himself instead of looking down at me with such tenderness and care that it sends me over into another crying fit.
"I-I'm s-so s-s-so-sorryyyyy," I blubber, bringing my hands to my face to hide.
He shushes me, pulling my hands gently away and then bending down to kiss my forehead, then the tip of my nose, thenthe side of my eye. "Don't you dare be sorry, you hear me? I love you, Tamryn." He puts his hand to the center of my chest and presses, making my heart beat even faster except for a different reason.
My tears stop, and my eyes go wide as I dig my nails into his…chest?
I look between us, seeing I'm touching his chest for the first time.
"Caleb, I-" My breath hitches as our eyes lock, but unable to help it, my gaze drifts down to my palms again. "Caleb, you're letting metouchyou."When his eyes drift down he freezes. My heart skips a beat, as does his under my palm, and then all the air is sucked out of the room. Wetting my lips, I swallow hard. "Hey," I whisper, bringing his eyes back to mine. "I love you too…"
