Page 100 of In You
"Oh, baby," I say, opening my eyes and meeting hers when she clenches hard on the tip of my cock. "You're so perfect." I let one of her hands go to caress up her arm and to the nape of her neck and squeeze gently. "You're so damn perfect, my love. My beautiful wife."
Her pupils blow wide, and she moans as she raises up and down in a lazy, slow tempo, grinding our sexes together, and working us gently to the pinnacle of our pleasure. We come together, our bodies rocking and straining as we both try to prove to the other how much we need the other.
And for the first time in my life, I feel fixed.
I feel whole.
37
How Is She?
Caleb
Three Months Later
"Push,Tamryn!"Igrit,holding her hand in mine as she digs her nails in, screws her eyes shut, and stops breathing as she does just that.
Her face turns red and sweat dots her brow and face, but she couldn't be more beautiful to me. Gasping for air, she throws her head back and groans.
"One more push, Tamryn," Dr. Peterson, our obgyn, says, looking up from between her spread legs. "She's crowning. We just need one more good push and she'll be out, you're doing so good."
"I-I'm so tired." Tamryn throws me a nervous look, tears sliding down her face as her eyes meet mine.
"Hey," I murmur quietly, tilting my head down to give her a kiss. "You're so strong. So brave. You got this, my love. Just one more push, and you'll be able to hold our beautiful girl."
Her face contorts and she sobs quietly. "You promise?"
My heart breaks, because I know what she's asking, but I can't know if she's going to switch or not and I really don't want to make false promises. I swallow hard, nodding my head and adjusting my grip on her hand. "Yes, baby. I'll be right here every step of the way."
She shivers, turns her eyes to the front, and then bears down on a long, drawn out moan.
"Yes! Yes, yes, yes,Tamryn!"Dr. Peterson works between her legs, and tears come to my eyes at the sight of Tris' head emerging. A few seconds later she's pulled from Tamryn's body and then plopped onto her chest, goo and all.
"Oh my god.Oh my god,"Tamryn cries, clearly overwhelmed.
The nurses move fast, and there's so much happening at once it's maddening; they wipe her off, suctioning Tris, cleaning Tamryn up. Tears flow down my face at the sound of Tris's first cry, and I clear my throat softly when Tamryn looks up with a smile and works to wrap the blanket loosely around Tris. The nurses take her, and I pose for a picture of me cutting the umbilical cord.
It's a wonder I could see through the tears to manage it.
Refusing the nurse, I give Tris her first bath and hum to her as I do so, washing her little baby hair, and smiling when she yawns, then cries.
"Caleb, let me see her," Tamryn calls from her bed, obviously wanting her back.
I bring Tris straight to her, and then carefully put a diaper on Tris while she's on her lap. She pulls her back to her breasts, burying her lips to her hair and then rocking gently side to side. I can already tell she's going to be an amazing mom.
"Let me order you some food," I say, brushing my hand down her hair. She meets my eyes and then nods, quickly putting her eyes back to Tris. I order the food, and by the time it comes, Tamryn's got her to latch, and I feed her while she feeds our baby.
It's hands down the most intimate experience I've ever had. Easily.
When she's done and Tris has fallen asleep, Tamryn looks up at me with a small smile. "You're a daddy. Can you believe it?"
I shake my head on a half chuckle. "No, but it's the best feeling in the world, aside from being your husband." Tamryn visibly melts. "Do you…" I feel my chest tighten, and I sit carefully on the edge of her bed, feeling vulnerable. "Do you think we can have another one?"
Her eyes widen in surprise before lowering to Tris, and then she sits for a minute, thinking. She doesn't answer my question,merely looking back up and then giving me another small smile. "Want to hold her for a bit?"
I nod, clearly beyond being able to talk. My entire being lights up, and my skin turns warm as I bend to Tamryn and Tris, giving Tamryn a loving kiss first before putting my lips to the top of Tris's head. Gently, I pull her into my arms and stay close to Tamryn. She puts her head to the pillow wearily, and a sort of joyful glow emits from her I've never seen before.
"You're the most beautiful mom in the world," I say reverently. My voice is choked up, but I couldn't care less. I'm the luckiest man in the world right now, and nothing can bring me off this high. A whole life spent full of terror, pain, and uncertainty, and now I finally get a slice of heaven.
