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Nate: What exactly did you lie about?


I stare at the question, at a loss for how to explain the magnitude of my deception without sounding like a complete asshole. How can I condense generations of family wealth, my deliberate concealment, and Sophia’s justified sense of betrayal into a text message?

I finally type:


Jack: Can't go into details. Just know it wasn't anything harmful but it was fundamental. An omission that changed how she sees me.


Even that feels inadequate. I add:


Jack: On a scale of 1-10, how fucked am I?


His response is immediate and brutally honest:


Nate: 11. But not necessarily permanently fucked.


I bark out a laugh despite myself. Leave it to an ER nurse to deliver the unvarnished truth.

His follow-up hits even harder:


Nate: Look, I'm the last guy who should give relationship advice. But I know Sophia. She doesn't do games. If you fucked up so bad it doesn't fit in a text, you better just own it and then pray as hard as you can to whatever deity will listen.


The straightforward assessment is like a splash of cold water. No platitudes, no false reassurance. Just the truth I need to hear.