Page 80 of His Sassy Omega
But Fate, damn her, had stepped in again, and thrown another curveball our way.
“I know.” I was shocked at my calm, steady voice, because it wasn’t how I was really feeling. I knew with everything in me, it was what Quinn needed from me now, though.
“This,” he waved a hand at the space between our two bodies. “It’s been a lot to deal with.”
“It has.” Words quietly spoken.
“You…this…” He was searching for the words. “You make me feel things I’ve never felt. You make me feel vulnerable, and it overwhelms me. I’m not used to it, and it scares me.”
I knew those words were hard for him to say, and to admit. He didn’t like feeling weak. Not in control. My feelings for him were so much more intense than I’d ever felt with anyone, too. I didn’t think I’d be able to put words to all the emotions I was feeling, had someone asked me to.
“Everything seems to be moving at lightning speed with us.” He chewed on his thumbnail, a habit he did when he was feeling anxious and unsure. “I feel like I’m on a roller coaster, holding on for dear life, and I can’t catch my breath.” His eyes glinted in the light of the hallway, glassy green. He swiped at them. “God damn, this fucking crying! I’m over this bullshit!”
I waffled between scooping him up in my arms and cuddling him, and grinning at his flare of temper. His moods had been all over the place since we’d met, with a large number of tears. I was sure he wasn’t someone who normally cried at the drop of a hat. Or, at all.
Honestly, his moods had started to worry me. But now, if he was pregnant, it was like a lightbulb went off. All his crazy mood swings made perfect sense.
Finn took that moment to poke his head out of the library. “I’m just going to squeeze past you guys, and take a look at the test.”
When Finn moved into the bathroom, flipping the light on, I did what I wanted to do a few minutes ago. I scooped Quinn up in my arms, and stroked his back, his hair, nuzzled my lips into his tangled curls. I breathed in his scent, and let my alpha pheromones wash over him. Soothe him. Calm him. “No matter what, it’s going to be okay.”
He sniffed into my shoulder. “How is anything going to beokay?”
I pulled back, tipping his chin up with my finger, and looked deep into his eyes. “It’s going to be okay,” I repeated. He needed to hear what I was saying. Really hear the words.
“I don’t want kids, Lachlan!” he wailed. “I have a bakery to run! I don’t even like kids! I mean, I like them, but I like the ones I can give back to their parents. Who do I give them to if I’m the parent? I can’t. I’m sorry. Even if I am, I…you’re going to end up hating me, resenting me, and I can’t.”
“Quinn, whatever you decide, it’s your choice. It’s your body.” He wasn’t making a lot of sense right now, but I understood what he was trying to say, what he was thinking.
“You don’t mean that!” He paced the hallway in agitation. “I’m not who you wanted! You want an omega who is going to stay home, and clean your house. Cook you dinner and have it on the table when you walk in the door. You want kids and I don’t, and…I can’t take seeing that look in youreyes. The one that says I took all your dreams away from you. We should just end this now, before….” His hands fluttered in agitation. “I can’t.”
I grabbed his hands tightly, stilling his jerky movements. “Hey! Listen to me.” I put my face close to his, forehead to forehead. His eyes were big. Filled with sorrow, tears, and something else I couldn’t identify. “I meant what I said. I won’t resent you, and I won’t hate you.” I really hoped I’d be able to back those words up if it came down to it. “This is your decision. Your body. I don’t know what it is you think you can’t do, but I’m going to make this easy for you and spell it out. I’m not walking away, no matter what that test says. No matter what you decide. I want you. I need you. You make me crazy, in the best possible way. You are running scared right now, and that’s okay, but know this,” I breathed onto his skin.
I stepped back, giving him space, and making sure he could see my face. “You can run all you want, as far away as you can get, and I will chase you. I will chase you every time. You’re all I think about. You’reeverythingto me. I know it’s been a quick, crazy few weeks, and you don’t know which way is up, but I don’t care. When I say it’s going to be okay, I mean it.”
I knew Finn was hanging back in the bathroom, giving us the time and space that we needed. It didn’t take that long for him to read a word on a plastic stick.
“Finn,” I called, and he appeared in the doorway. I put my arm around Quinn’s shoulders, pulling him close to me. “What’s the verdict?”
Finn smiled gently at Quinn. I had no doubt he’d heard every single word we’d said. With our wolf hearing, it was virtually impossible for him to have not. We hadn’t been quiet, and the door had been wide open.
“It’s positive.”
The words hung in the air, neither of us speaking. My wolf howled in glee, and I shut him down. I didn’t want to think about anything thatmight come after this, not yet. I wanted this tiny second, minute, of feeling nothing but complete joy at hearing those words.
I felt Quinn tremble, and wanting to lighten the mood, I said, “Thank fuck. I was beginning to think you were bi-polar. Turns out, you were just pregnant.”
Quinn, being Quinn –my Quinn– flipped me two birds, one for each hand. “Oh fuck right off. Haven’t you heard omegas are emotional creatures?”
“Not my Sass Ass. He’s tough as steel.” I grinned at him.
He grinned back, for a very small second, then his face fell. Turning to Finn, he asked, “When can I terminate?”
And just like that, there it was. My heart sank, but I wasn’t about to let Quinn see my reaction to his question. Not after what I’d just said to him. I did believe it was an omega’s choice. It was their body, their decision. The words were easier to back up when it wasn’t my omega, my pup. Did that make me a hypocrite? Probably. Was I going to force the issue? Absolutely not. That wasn’t what Quinn needed right now.
I watched Finn’s face closely. Whatever I thought I might see there – shock, anger, astonishment – it was missing. All I saw was compassion and kindness, and not for the first time, I wondered if I knew any of my brothers as well as I imagined I did.
“First things first, we need to verify the pregnancy, and how far along you are,” Finn said, motioning for us to move back to the comfort of my library. “Tests can give false positives.”
