Page 49 of Knot Their Girl
I don’t look at him as I pass him. In fact, I might hang my head lower than I should, but I can’t help it. Not going into Raeka’s room, not tearing off her clothes and making her mine… it’s not right. It goes against nature. It’s practically a crime.
And it’s all made even worse by the fact that I shouldn’t feel this way for the omega I brought into the house for my nephew.
I barely make it to my bed before I collapse. I sit on the edge, lean my elbows on my knees, and bury my face in my hands. Not once in my life have I ever wanted someone like this. It’s new to me. It’s bizarre. Even now, the only thing I can think about is Raeka and how perfectly her body fit against mine, how she whispered my name… the overpowering scent of her slick.
We almost crossed a line tonight. I should tell Colter, but how? Maybe I shouldn’t. Maybe it was a one-off. Maybe it’ll never happen again.
No. That’s a lie. Impossible. Anytime I see her, anytime I’m near her from now on, all I’ll be able to think about will be how badly I want her.
“It’s hard, isn’t it?” Pax’s voice makes me look up at him. He stands in front of me, which means he must have followed me in here after he saw me in the hall. The alpha has a nose of his own; he already knows what her slick smells like. He can put what almost happened here together on his own. When I don’t say anything, he comes to sit beside me, his muscular frame leaning forward as he mimics my position.
After a minute, I manage to speak, “I didn’t think… my intentions were pure when I gave her the offer. When I met her at the Omega Garden, I thought she was just a peculiar omega, but afterward I couldn’t shake her. I thought she could get what she wants and I could help my nephew all in one shot. No normal omega would accept an offer to court a beta, let alone a mute beta who has a history of self-harm and doesn’t ever leave the house.”
Pax doesn’t say a thing; he must sense I’m not quite finished.
“She made me flustered from the beginning. I assumed my reaction to her was simply because I don’t have much experience dealing with omegas, but…” My shoulders go up and down in a shrug. “Now, I don’t think that’s it. Now I’m worried I misread everything. What if I wanted her to be mine from the beginning?”
I turn my gaze to the alpha beside me, finding he watches me silently. His expression doesn’t read furious or concerned; if anything, he’s understanding, which isn’t what I expect. A part of me assumed he’d be upset.
Then again, how could he be upset when he crossed a line with her, too? We are both drawn to her, that much is clear.
“If it makes you feel any better,” Pax tells me, “you’re not alone. That girl—” The corners of his mouth quirk upward in the faintest smile, although that expression doesn’t last long. “—I knew from the first moment I met her that she was trouble. I didn’t think she’d be trouble for me. I focused on work my whole life. I have three brothers, so even though I’m the oldest, my parents never pushed me to find an omega. I didn’t want to, until…”
I nod and whisper, “Until her.” It’s an odd thing, to feel exactly the same way as the alpha beside me. Pax and I couldn’t be more different, but at the same time, we’re more alike than I realized, especially when it comes to Raeka.
“Honestly, I’m surprised you didn’t want me gone after the incident downtown,” he goes on. “If you wanted her that badly, you should want me out of the picture.”
“She seems to like you,” I say.
“She seems to like you, too.”
We stare at each other for a few moments, neither of us saying anything else right away. An unspoken understanding passes between us, and I realize we’re on the same page. Neither one of us is ticked off at the other; neither of us views the other as competition.
And that means… what, exactly? I don’t know.
“What happens now, Pax? What do we do?” I whisper, needing guidance. The talk with him helped me to get my mind off of my hard dick; thankfully it’s now losing its gusto in my pants. Soon enough it will be forgotten, but what happened earlier, what led it to become rock-hard in the first place, will never be forgotten.
“Maybe,” the über alpha pauses, “we should let our omega decide.”
Our omega.
It shouldn’t sound so right coming out of his mouth, but it does, and I can’t argue about it.
Our omega. Yes, that sounds right. It wouldn’t sound half as true if we were talking about any other omega in the world. Only Raeka Whittenhall.
The only problem is she doesn’t want to be any alpha’s omega, let alone belong to two.
And then, of course, what about Colter?
Chapter Twenty-Four – Raeka
I really need to do laundry. Now I have two slick-coated panties bundled up beneath my mattress. The first thing I did the next morning is take another shot—with how my body responded to Gideon’s last night, I don’t trust myself. I’d rather be safe than sorry.
The second thing I do is call Mercedes, but I wait until I’m outside, a good bit away from the back patio, before I do it. Don’t want any alphas overhearing what I’m about to talk to her about. And Colter… shit. I should tell him something, shouldn’t I? Keeping secrets just doesn’t feel right.
Mercedes answers the phone on the second ring, “Raeka. What’s up?”
I pace back and forth on the grass with my bare feet. My arm is a little sore from the shot; I did it in a hurry. At the rate I’m going, I’m going to need another set of shots soon. “I’m freaking out over here.”
