It was getting closer and closer to the cutoff to make a decision.
"Okay, Felicity," I muttered to myself, my breath forming misty clouds. "Time to face the music and dance—or at least, shuffle awkwardly towards some kind of resolution."
Tucking a rogue strand of auburn hair behind my ear, I hugged my knees to my chest, the soft fabric of my sweater comforting against my skin. Memories swirled around me like snowflakes caught in a gentle wind—sled races down Cooper's Hill, late-night confessions at slumber parties, and the warmth of my family's love enveloping me.
"Then there's Thomas," I murmured, my heart skipping a beat. His image sprang to mind—those piercing green eyes that seemed to see right through my defenses, his dark hair falling just over his brow in that effortlessly charming way.
The happiness I felt in here was palpable, a stark contrast to the ambition that drove my relentless pace in New York. There, success was measured in contracts signed and accolades earned, but in Amesbury... In Amesbury, it was measured in heartbeats and held hands.
I rose from the bed and paced the room. "I've built a career on making tough decisions, on knowing what stories will capture hearts. Why is this so hard?"
I sighed, the weight of her decision pressing down on her like the heavy winter quilts stored in the closet. Could she really trade skyscrapers for steepled churches, taxi horns for the serene silence of snowfall?
"Whatever I decide," I vowed, turning away from the relics of my past and towards the uncertainty of my future, "it'll be a story worth telling. And maybe, just maybe, it'll have the happiest of endings."
My fingers paused over the keyboard, the glow of my laptop screen casting a soft light in the dimly lit room. I bit my lip, a habit when mulling over crucial decisions or editing an intricate manuscript at midnight. My heart pitched with every clack of the keys as I typed 'Publishing Jobs Amesbury' into the search bar.
"Let's see what you've got for me, Amesbury," I muttered, half-expecting the internet to yield a secret trove of literary opportunities. The search results, however, were laughably sparse—a job posting for a part-time librarian assistant and another seeking a columnist for the local paper, 'The Amesbury Chronicle.'
"Columnist, huh?" I chuckled under my breath. "From publishing high-flyer to small-town muckraker. That'd be a plot twist."
I opened the job description and skimmed through it, imagining myself chasing stories about lost cats and documenting the annual pumpkin festival. My mind danced with wry headlines: 'Felicity Finds Feline: Former New Yorker Nabs Notorious Tabby.'
"Stop it," I chided myself. "This isn't a joke. This is... this could be my life."
With a deep breath, I opened my email and began crafting messages to my contacts in the industry, my heart thrumming in anticipation and fear. Each word was chosen with care, each sentence a bridge between my present and a possible future.
"Hey Marianne, I hope you're well. I find myself contemplating a change of scenery—Amesbury, to be precise. It's a long story, but if you know of any remote opportunities or upcoming projects that could use my expertise, I'd be very grateful for the lead," I wrote, my inner editor scrutinizing every word for desperation.
"Dear Jackson, I trust you're causing havoc with your latest bestseller. Listen, I'm exploring options outside of NYC, preferably ones that don't uproot me from Amesbury. Thoughts? Connections? Black magic?"
"Black magic might be more useful than WiFi out here," I quipped aloud, shaking my head at the absurdity of it all.
After sending off several emails, I leaned back in my chair, surveying my childhood bedroom turned makeshift office. The walls still held echoes of a girl who dreamed big and talked bigger, who never imagined I’d be pining for a life bound by the town limits.
"Isn't it ironic?" I mused. "I used to think success meant escaping a small town. Now I'm trying to claw my way back in."
My phone pinged—a reply. It was from Marianne.
"Hey Felicity! Change of scenery sounds intriguing. There's actually something that might fit the bill. Ever thought about remote editorial consulting? A few indie publishers are looking for someone with your knack for spotting a diamond in the rough. Let's chat?"
"Spotting diamonds in a literary minefield, eh?" My lips curled into a smile. "Well, why not? Stranger things have happened."
Hope fluttered in my chest like the delicate wings of a moth drawn to lamplight. Perhaps, just perhaps, I could weave together the disparate threads of my life—my career, my love for Thomas, the allure of the big city, and the comforting embrace of Amesbury.
"Okay, universe," I whispered, closing my laptop with a decisive snap. "Let's see if you're on my side."
18
Felicity
"Ah, the prodigal patron returns," Cole said with a dramatic flourish as he spotted me. "To what do we owe this honor?"
"Can't a girl get a latte without the third degree?" I teased, approaching the counter, my eyes scanning the space for Thomas.
"Only if she admits she missed my charming company," Cole shot back, his grin wide as he began prepping my usual order without needing to ask.
"Keep dreaming, Cole." My retort came with a mock roll of my eyes, but my heart wasn't in it; the camaraderie was too comforting, the banter too deeply ingrained in our shared history.