Page 176 of I Can't Even Think Straight

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Not to my parents yet,

but to The Boys, at least.”

I wait, but he’s stopped speaking.

“Why now?” I ask.

I watch him weigh his words.

“From how they’ve been with you,

and how they handled Kojo,

I’ve got a lot more faith in them.”

“So, you come out to The Boys

and then what?” I ask, still processing.

“I come out to The Boys

and then we can be together.”

Matt says this like it’s obvious.

“We can be together?”

I repeat in the form of a question this time,

mocking Matt’s oversimplification.

Matt looks more wounded than me.

I say it again, pointedly.

“You’ll come out to The Boys

and then we can be together?

It’s as simple as that, is it?

What about everyone else?

What about my mum and Vass?

What about Obi?” I ask.

“Would you really rather be with Obi

if you could be with me?” Matt asks,

with a shocking amount of confidence.

I know this confidence isn’t put on.

These are his real feelings showing.

“You’ve known I was in love with you

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