Page 203 of Mountain Daddy

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Even if everything between us stays exactly the same.

He should know too.

I set my fork down.

“Dad, I…” I swallow. “I can’t have kids.”

His mouth opens, but then he closes it. “You don’t want to?” he asks slowly.

Rolling my lips together, I wish I could do this without feeling so emotional.

Tears won’t help.

I’m okay now. And I need him to understand that part the most.

I lift a shoulder. “I can’t.”

“What do you mean?” Dad’s voice is quiet.

I can feel Luther’s eyes on me, but I can’t look at him. Not while I say this part. “I mean… I’ll never be able to have children. I…” I take a breath. Then I say it. “I had my ovaries removed.”

Dad’s throat bobs. “When?”

“Ten years ago,” I admit, knowing it will hurt him.

Dad blinks, then whispers the next question, like he’s scared of the answer. “Why?”

It was a lifetime ago.

I remember it like it was yesterday.

“They—the doctors, they found a tumor.”

Dad exhales, like the answer struck him in the chest.

We found a tumor.

We need to remove it as soon as possible.

I try not to think about that day. But it’s easier now. Easier than it was.

My dad’s eyes shimmer with emotion. “Cancer?”

I lift my shoulder again and nod.

He makes a sound of distress.

“I’m fine.” I hurry out. “They got everything, and nothing spread. That’s why they took both.”

“Kendra.” Tears spill down Dad’s cheeks.

He never calls me that.

I fight my own battle against my tears.

“I’m okay.” I reassure him.

“Why didn’t you tell me?” He wipes at his cheeks.