Page 5 of On My Side
I reluctantly tell her about how exhausting showering is, how cooking, my favorite hobby that usually energizes me, has been stressful and draining. How my bedroom is filled with dirty dishes, food wrappers, cups, and dirty clothes. We discuss baby steps for me to take, and Eva doesn’t bring up the friends thing again, thank god.
“Don’t think I forgot about you making friends,” Eva says at the end of our session. I internally groan. Goddammit. “But,” she continues, “we need to get you to a healthy baseline before we add more goals. You’re going to be okay, Audrey. And once you’re okay again, we’ll work on getting you to happy.”
“You’re going to cure my depression?” I tease.
“I would if I could,” she answers earnestly. “But the best I can do is help you find the things that make you happy, the things that make you want to feel better.”
God, even that feels unattainable.
Chapter 3
Ren
Playlist: mirrorball | Taylor Swift
Quiblings group chat
Leo
reeeeennnnnnnnnn
Leo
mom’s complaining you didn’t stop by on wednesday like you usually do.
Leo
stop being such an overachiever and making the rest of us look bad.
Nic
you know what? hell yeah. sunday dinner when you can make it should be enough to make her happy, but nooooo you and kat have to be perfect, local children without boundaries who will do anything for our parents so when we can’t it makes us look like assholes.
Kat
sorry for being a good daughter millie sure isn’t going to come through for them, and if ren can’t, who’s going to? me.
Millie
get fucked.
Kat
sucks being name dropped for no reason, doesn’t it?
Nic
trust me, there’s a reason.
Jo
how the hell do you people still sound loud in text messages?
Nic
hey! noise complaints are my thing.
Alex
