Page 5 of Dionysus
Since that call, I had been searching high and low for Raquel and Jewel. I’d checked bandos, warehouses, and even broken into a few brownstones. It’s been weeks, and not only was I lowon cash, but a nigga was losing his mind. I had tried calling that unknown number back and got nothing.
I had been waiting for Tameka or Felipe to show their face so I could ask, hell, even beg for the mercy of my family. I knew the only option I had at this point was to try to find Tameka to get answers. I had gone from barely sleeping to no sleep at all. I cried and prayed, but I still got nothing. I needed to find Tameka somehow, and the only place I could think of was the brownstones where I had met Felipe at that one time.
I turned to see Boogie bitch ass aiming a gun at me. I quickly swung as the gun went off.
“Dio!” I heard Bianca screaming.
Bloaw!
The chaos in the club ensued.
Bloaw! Bloaw!
“Ah shit!” I screamed as a piercing feeling hit me.
The hot sting and aching made me glance down to see blood seeping from my shirt. The bullet went through my upper back, straight through my chest. My ears rang with a screeching noise, and it lasted for a few minutes until everything went silent. All I could do was focus on the motions of everyone running around in the club.
I couldn’t hear shit. My hand eased toward my head, and I could feel the thick, wet blood. I began panicking. My heart raced, and my breathing increased. My legs felt numb, as I dropped to my knees. God, please. I begged. My eyes began toflutter as I began to sip in air. I was about to die, and I knew it. I glanced at the stage as people ran crazily to see the bottom of Bianca’s stilettos. She had been hit.
A bright light beamed over the stage; it had to be Ace coming to collect me. I sipped in air again as tears streamed down my face. My eyes fluttered again, and this time, my body fell backwards, causing me to slam the back of my head on the floor. I glanced up at the ceiling with bright lights. My breathing slowed down. I began thinking about every single decision that got me here. I began thinking about what my life would have been like. Every time I had pushed someone away, it crossed my mind. I thought of Samara. Mars the Star. She and I would have been something great. Me watching her grow into the woman I knew she could be. I dropped the ball with her. Just another kiss, one that would make this ending bittersweet. I love you Mars, a nigga does.
Zeus, damn, I fucked up this time. I know you wanted more for me, and I really fucked up. I couldn’t sip in air anymore, and my mouth moved slowly. Another tear rolled down the side of my face, then another and another. My hands fell to my sides as I could no longer feel them. Shit, at this point I felt nothing. My eyes began to roll. “Zu-Zeus, I-I’m sorry.”
Lights, out.
Beep! Beep! Beep!
My ears stung, and the throbbing pain shot through my insides. It was as if someone had shoved something so far into my ear that it had hit a nerve. Muffled sounds of a news stationhummed in the background.Was I in a hospital?A sense of relief hit me because someone helped me. Someone got me some fucking help. Something was wrong though, I couldn’t feel anything. My fingers, my legs, nothing, but I could hear.
I tried opening my eyes, but I couldn’t. It was as if I were merely a vessel with a living consciousness. I began to panic because darkness found me.Was I dead? Was this a part of my hell?I didn’t know what to think. I could hear the sound of my heartbeat. It was so loud that the thumping settled in my throat. My heart began beating faster, and that beeping noise got louder. It became so rapid that the sound of the door swinging open startled me.
Dio, move!I told myself.Come on nigga, move!
I needed whoever it was that walked in to wake me the fuck up. I didn’t want to be in the dark. I wanted light. I wanted to be able to put the sound to an object or a face to the voice. Had I fucked up so bad that God figured this was the only way to calm me down? That’s when I heard a familiar voice.
“Dionysus!”
It was my brother.Zeus!I began to calm down a bit.
“Di- ah shit man look at him. My bro-brother!” Zeus struggled to get out. “Dio, I’m here. It’s Zeus if you can hear me.”
Zeus!I screamed mentally, hoping my lids or something would move. His groaning sobs stung.How bad was I?
“Dionysus what the fuck man! What did you get yourself into?” Zeus cried. “I knew I should have been here.Ahh!” He shouted.
The sound of his pain broke me. My heartbeat picked up again. I was trying to open my eyes. There had to be a way to wake up from this fucked up dream. If I died, who would Zeus have? This would break him, and I needed to be there for him. He was my only heartbeat. He was Pops.
There was that machine again, moving faster and faster as my emotions became high, listening to Zeus sob. My fucking brother was crying and there was nothing I could do.
“I’m going to kill whoever did this to you. I’m going to fuck this muhfucka up,” he wailed. “I promise. I need you to fight Dio, you got to—”
“Mr. Jackson,” a sweet voice entered.
Whoever it was, I wanted them gone. I needed to focus on Zeus’s voice. Maybe if he kept talking, I would be able to move to let him know I heard him.
Sniffles again.Zeus wasn’t keeping his shit together. This was breaking him, and that alone made me feel bad. I knew some of this was my fault. He wouldn’t have been here had I called him, but I didn’t.
I didn’t know how to explain to him that I was seeing things and hearing voices. I didn’t want him to put me away like our mother but merely get me some help. I know Zeus wanted me to be normal like everyone else, but the truth is I wasn’t. I was fucked up in the head and didn’t know how to deal with it. I didn’t want to be judged; I just wanted someone who would understand. I knew Zeus wouldn’t.
