Page 34 of Dionysus
Right now, I was in my version of heaven and wanted to enjoy it without distractions.
DIO
I hung up the hospital phone, disappointed. I was hoping Mars would answer, but she didn’t. They told Zeus and me they would release me in the next few days. I was ready to leave. My chest and head were still sore, but none of that mattered to me. I was ready to go. I had my mind set on starting new, and I wanted to do that in Toussaint, especially before my birthday.
Zeus came in with a smile on his face. I hadn’t seen Zeus smile like this in a while. “Sup,” I said to him.
He touched the side of my head. “Looks like the swelling is going down. How do you feel?”
“Grateful. I’m ready to get out of here.”
“I know, but we will when the doctor says you can. Um, you know that girl—”
“Who Mars?”
“No, Bianca.”
“Oh, what about her?”
“She died. She wasn’t as lucky as you were.”
I didn’t know how to feel about that. Was it sad that she died? Yes. Did I care? No. I cared more about what Samara was doing. I couldn’t wait to get to her. However, I didn’t want her to see me like this. When I approached her this time, I wanted to come correct. I wanted to come to her like a real man, the man she needed. So, getting back to Toussaint and getting it right was all I cared about. It would be the best birthday gift a nigga could ask for.
Zeus sat down and looked at me awkwardly. I knew he was probably thinking of the right words to say, but he didn’t have tosay anything because what he said to me that night was enough. He had the chance to pour his heart out to me and now it was my turn. “I heard everything you said,” I blurted out.
His eyes widened. “You did?”
“Yeah, nigga. I heard all of you. Each of you came in and told me how you felt, and I heard you.”
“Well shit.”
I laughed and waved him off. “Ah, Zeus, chill.”
There was a moment of silence between us. I took a deep breath before speaking. “You know, being in that condo with my thoughts. I was losing it. Zeus, I was down so bad that I wanted to,” I paused because I knew the following few words were about to hurt him. “I wanted to kill myself. I don’t know, I was battling things because I did shit, shit that you would disapprove of. I—”
“You don’t have to share it. I—”
I stopped him. “I do. That’s the problem, I haven’t been sharing, and the shit was eating me alive. Zeus, I killed my best friend. I shot him by accident, and I couldn’t accept it. I couldn’t forgive myself. I started hearing and seeing shit and I was struggling,” I told him as I tried catching the tear that slipped.
He scooted closer to the bed. “I haven’t been the best, but I promise to try harder. I want you to be able to live your life without having to worry if I’m ok. Zeus, I’m ok, I just need a little help. I love you and I’m sorry, I really am.”
My eyes raised to him, catching his tears. He got up and hugged me just like he did when he thought I was dead. “I’m proud of you, Zeus. I’m fucking proud.”
We hugged each other and cried until the doctor entered the room. This was my first time seeing her, and I wasn’t disappointed. “Dionysus?” she called out.
“Dr. Lady.”
She giggled. “It’s great to see you back with us. Your tests look good. You may need some checks to be sure, you will have a bit of nerve damage, but I think you will be just fine.”
“You hear that Zeus, a nigga gone be straight.”
“Yes, you are. I think it’s ok for you to be released.”
A big smile graced my face. I didn’t care to stay in New York another day, I was ready to get gone.
ZEUS
“Come on nigga, let’s go!” Diamond shouted.
