Page 139 of Covenant

It’s fucking killing me though, especially with all the resources I have at my fingertips. What good is all this power if I can’t use it to make the person I love happy?

There’s a rap at my door and Cade’s head appears. “Got something from The Firm for you.”

“Not interested.”

I received the notification that someone had left a request, just as I know all my brothers did. This system is much better than the one we had in place before technology caught up. Going night after night to that musty church to check was something we, thankfully, didn’t need to do any longer. Not having to deal with the cobwebs and creepy sounds emanating from the graveyard was a plus. “You’re on the schedule tonight. It’s your problem.”

Cade slides a folded piece of paper in front of me. “Actually, I think this one is very muchyourproblem.”

I sigh, knowing he won’t leave until I look. Ice fills my veins as I unfold the paper, as my gaze frantically skims over the note before flying up to my brother. “What is this?”

“You know what it is, Matty.”

I shake my head in disbelief. “No, it can’t be from him. He wouldn’t go to The Firm.”

Cade shrugs. “That request suggests he would.”

I finger the edges of the paper, my heart cracking in my chest.Wyatt.How desperate must he be feeling? He’s made no secret of his disdain for The Firm over the years. The fact that he’s gone to them…

I don’t like it. My poor Wy. Even though I know nothing bad will come of this, he doesn’t. He must be so stressed.

“Well?” Cade says. “It’s from your man.”

“I don’t have a man.”

The lie is automatic. Cade knows as well as all the others that it’s bullshit. And, like the others, he has no issue calling me on it. “Fine. I’ll deal with it then.”

“No!” I say hurriedly, snatching the paper. “I mean, no. I can sort it.”

Cade smirks knowingly. “This is your chance.”

“What do you mean?”

“To get back in with him,” Cade says. “Come on, Matty. We all know that you’re in love with the guy. This is your shot.”

“You’re right.” My mind is already racing with possibilities. Wyatt’s asked for a lot, but it’s not enough. That figure won’t cover everything he and Jackson need. “I can fix so much for him.”

“You can.” Cade taps my head until I look up at him across the desk. “But, come on, Matthias. Think of yourself for once.”

“What?”

Cade huffs. “This is your chance to get back into his life. Don’t throw it away. Remind him of what you once shared.”

I haven’t ever told the others of everything that went down between Wyatt and me, but they’re all shockingly intelligent. Even Harley, for all his fucking about. They all know who Wyatt is to me, what he means.

And they know the lengths that Father went to keep us apart. Cade heard far more that fateful morning than I’d ever intended. “I couldn’t betray his trust like that. He’d hate me.”

“He already hates you,” Cade says. “And he sure as fuck doesn’t trust you.”

I stay silent, staring down at the paper. Am I really considering this? Oh fuck. Oh fuck. I am.

“Just think about it,” Cade nods. “You’ve got nothing to lose and everything to gain.”

He’s wrong though. I could get Wyatt back, but if he learned the truth about it, I’d lose him all over again.

Forever this time.

Somehow though, I don’t think it’ll be enough to stop me.

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