Page 5 of Say You Want Me
Pres grabs my bag in silence.
“I’m sorry,” I say, feeling like shit. “I didn’t mean that. I’m being a bitch.”
“I know. And I’ll be the first to remind you that secrets cause damage.” She grips my arm and looks at me with concern. “I love you, and I’m worried. I know something is going on. Something that you want to tell me, otherwise, you wouldn’t be here. You can sell your stress story to someone who hasn’t known you for almost twenty years. Try again.”
Damn her. “Give me a few hours.”
“How about we grab some Starbucks before we head to Bell Buckle?”
“It’s like you know me or something.” I smile. This is the best part of our friendship, we know when to let something drop and share a deep affection for coffee.
We grab our drinks. I subtly get decaf, which is pretty much blasphemous, and we start the trip to Bell Buckle. We chat and she tells me all about the wedding plans. It’s amazing how much this girl got done in a few months. I shouldn’t be surprised, considering she did the same thing with the bakery. It was a concept one day, and then the next thing I knew, we were signing a lease. Presley is smart, hardworking, and has the biggest heart of anyone I know.
When we enter the town limits, my muscles tense. We pass through, and I wonder when I’ll see Wyatt. It’s going to happen, but I’m so not ready to deal with him.
I have to figure out my plan so when I do see him, I have answers. Do I want to do this completely on my own? My parents and brother live in Florida (where I will stay far away from), Presley lives here in Tennessee, and the baby’s father . . . I have no one in Media other than the people who work for me. Having a baby is hard enough for married couples, but being a single mom with no support system—it will be damn near impossible.
One freaking fantastic night has completely changed my life.
“Angie?” Presley says, pulling my attention away from staring out the window.
“What?”
“I asked if you wanted to go out tonight with Grace and Emily? They’d love to see you.”
I sigh as I realize I can’t go out drinking. “I don’t know. I’m really out of it. And really tired.” I’m tired all the time now.
Presley looks at me with confusion clear on her face. “Umm . . . I’ve known you a long ass time and you’ve never been one to pass on a night on the town. Are you still sick? You look okay.”
The urge to blurt it out claws its way up. Tears start to form as I look out the window to avoid her gaze. Everything is going to change. I’m so beyond screwed. “No. I mean, I’m okay. I’ll be fine. I would rather stay home. Maybe tomorrow?” Admitting this tidbit of news is going to change the entire conversation. Presley is a fantastic mother, and I know she’ll see this as something great.
Not that I don’t love kids, but I never really saw myself as a mom. I’m content with my trendy apartment in downtown Philadelphia, the bakery, and my shitty dating life. It’s all that makes me—me.
It hits me then. No one is going to want to date me now.
I’m going to be the single mother that people pity.
I’m going to be alone.
My hand covers my mouth as a tear falls.
“Angie.” Presley puts the car in park at the end of her dirt driveway. “Angie, look at me.”
I shake my head. “I’m fine. It’s fine.”
“What did the doctor say?”
Her voice is so full of love and compassion. There’s something deep inside me that has a feeling she knows.
I clutch my stomach as I turn to look at her. “I’m pregnant. I’m—”
“Holy shit! You’re pregnant?” Presley’s hands fly to her mouth.
“Apparently.”
I can only imagine the shit rolling around in her head. My chest starts to heave as I think about this absolute mess. I’ve been in some shit before, but this is a whole new level. I’m going to have something that needs me to survive. There’s no way I’ll be able to handle this. I can barely handle my own life let alone another living thing. “Oh my God! I can’t do this!”
Presley pulls me into her arms as I cry. “It’s going to be okay.”
