Page 47 of The Reality of Wanting Him

Ash and Chad just went home after hanging out for a couple of hours. Lucky has been loving the attention from the extra people around. A two-person camera crew followed us back from the game to get some footage of us all hanging out together, and after they left, Ash told me he’s bi. It was a complete surprise to me, but I understood why he kept it under wraps—his asshole family has always been obvious about their disapproval of queer people.I don’t get why people care. It has no effect on their life. Plus, our friend group has never really talked about same-sex relationships, so he’s been in the closet this whole time, unsure how we’d react.

I hate that he felt the need to hide a huge part of himself for so long, but it’s really cool knowing Liam and I helped inspire him to feel comfortable enough to share his truth, even if it was just with us and Chad for now. I haven’t given much thought to the implications of us being on this show and how our relationshipunfolded, but I hope it can help others feel inspired to live their truth too.If they don’t write me off for looking like an asshole for assuming Liam was a woman.

The most fulfilling part of tonight was that I finally got to see the real Ash. Once he shared his sexuality and was met with complete acceptance, he finally relaxed in a way that I’ve never seen—more outgoing and talkative, just happier. I’ve always liked having him as a friend, but I’m hoping we’ll be closer now that he knows I fully support him.

“It’s just a house,” I shrug, finally responding to Liam’s comment. I know it’s nice, and I’m not trying to downplay how fortunate I am, but I also know Liam is worried about me seeing his farm soon, and I don’t want him focusing on how different our homes are when we’ll be sharing one soon enough.

He snorts at my response. “Your kitchen is probably the size of my whole house and you don’t even cook.”

“So I clearly don’t need it,” I tease, earning an eye roll from Liam. “Stop focusing on my place, I need you to focus on meeee,” I whine, grabbing both of his hands to drag him with me as I walk backward toward my room.

“And why should I focus on you, B?” he taunts in that deep voice that instantly has my cock thickening. “Are you feeling needy?”

“Obviously. I had to go all morning without touching you, and on top of that, Ash spent the last hour checking you out, completely ignoring the fact that yourboyfriendwas sitting right next to you.”

“Is that why you threw your legs over mine to sit sideways on the couch? Staking your claim?”

“Yes,” I respond simply. No reason to sugarcoat how much I want it to be known that Liam is mine, even if I do want Ash to be comfortable being himself around us.

Liam’s answering smile makes my breath catch. I love seeinghim look so happy, but knowing that I’m the one making him feel that way makes my heart feel too big for my chest.

“Is your shower as fancy as your kitchen?” he asks, confusing me.I definitely thought we’d be going straight to my bed.

“Uh, I guess?”

“Shower first, then I want to try something new tonight if you’re up for it,” he says, grinning at me.

“I’m up for it,” I insist. I’ve loved the blowjobs, but I also want to explore everything that I possibly can with Liam. Having him boss me around is hot as hell, and I amsohere for more of it.

“You don’t even know what I want to do,” he points out with a laugh.

“If you want it, I want it too.”

“Fuck, B,” he groans. “You are going to be the death of me.” He leans in for a soft kiss, and I try to deepen it, but he’s pulling away and tugging me through my room into the en suite before I can. “Shower first,” he repeats softly, like maybe he’s saying it more to himself than me.

He spends a lot of time washing my body, running his large calloused hands over every inch of my skin to spread the soap, and then again to clean it off. His touch is electric, my skin buzzing everywhere that his hands trace, leaving me desperate for more. My cock has been aching this entire time, the blood completely draining from the rest of my body, redirecting south, making thoughts of anything other than Liam touching me very difficult.

“Look at your hard cock straining out toward me like it knows exactly who it belongs to,” Liam says. His voice is low as he completely ignores my erection. He moves around me, stepping in close to my back, grinding his own rock-hard cock between my asscheeks, and I let out a whimper at how good even that motion feels. My entire body is oversensitive, andevery stroke of his fingers sends jolts of pleasure straight to my balls.

Liam has both arms wrapped around my hips now, one hand slowly inching closer and closer to my aching dick as the other grips my hip tightly. He moves his mouth to speak right into my ear in that gravely tone I love. “Are you going to let me play with your ass tonight?”

My cock jerks as I subconsciously grind my hips back into his erection. “Yes. Anything, please.”

“Fuck, you’re so good for me, already begging to have your hole played with. Have you ever had anything inside of you there, straight boy?” he asks, stepping back to run a finger down my crease right over the hole in question.

“No, never.”

“But you’d be okay with that? You want it?” he checks again. I love how even though he’s bossy and dominant when we both want him to be, he never lets me forget that I’m still the one making decisions about what I’m comfortable doing. I’m the one choosing to give him the control here, and if I no longer want that, I have no doubts he’ll immediately stop whatever we’re doing. I don’t think I’d enjoy this dynamic with anyone but him, but I fuckingloveit.

“Yeah, I do. I’m not promising I’ll like it, but I definitely want to try. I had no idea I would love having a dick in my mouth as much as I do, and I want to know what else I might enjoy.”

He lets out a short laugh, squeezing my ass before smacking it firmly. The unexpected sharp sting only makes my cock ache even more. He shuts off the shower and hands me a towel. “Come on, get on the bed on your hands and knees with your ass in the air. Do you have lube?”

“Nightstand,” I answer, drying off quickly before I do exactly what he asked. Crawling onto the bed, I fold my arms in front of me on a pillow and rest my head down on them so myass is in the air as requested. The position has me feeling more exposed right now than I probably ever have in my life.What does my hole look like on display like this?But somehow, the potential embarrassment or shame I might be experiencing over being so vulnerable only makes this situation even hotter.

Liam grabs the lube and comes onto the bed to kneel behind me, spreading my cheeks with both hands. “Fuck, knowing I’m the first man to ever see you like this, to ever touch this virgin hole…” He lets out a slow breath and little moan while running his finger over my rim. “Blake, you’re so fucking sexy. I still can’t believe I get to do this with you,” he admits.

“Not just the first man, theonlyman,” I remind him. “I’m yours, Liam.”

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