Page 136 of Red Ruin

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I don’t believe theycare.

I just can’t.

Not two S-classes forced to compete for the same un-imprintable Guide who they canbothdrop as soon as a better option comes along.

Vhex and Remy can’t be trusted to remember my name, let alone tocareabout me.

I sigh.

Has that ever really mattered?

I’ll give them my heart.

Ialwaysgive myself away.

I try to be smart, I try to play cool, but when someone needs my help, I don’t know how to be any other way than I am.

I care too much.

Especially for the ones who’ll never love me back.

I don’t want to stop caring.

I just wish I could stop pretending it’ll ever be my turn to be on the other side.

“Look at me.” I lean on Vhex’s shoulders, putting my body in the way.

The fighting stops when gazes lock to my curves.

I must be doing something right.

They watch me like the other Sentinel just disappeared, and we’re finally all alone.

That’s fucking terrifying.

I breathe through the shakes.

It’s not my first time, or even my first time with them, but something’s changed.

In their eyes. In theirsouls.

“Lean back,” I say through the gravel in my throat.

Vhex reclines for me.

I shift pillows under his shoulders. He moves wordlessly, obedient to my every nudge and glance.

I kneel between his knees.

“Let me.” Remy moves against my back, anticipating what I want next.

As I smooth down my stomach, teasing my clit and dipping my fingers to prep for my first cock, Remy’s shadows curl into tongues.

They lick around from the backs of my thighs.

This time, they don’t delve straight inside. They flow around my fingers, adding length, girth, and a subtle sucking swirl that gives me the golden opportunity to fuck myself on five enthusiastic tongues at once.

I have so many emotional hang-ups, but even I’m not fucking dumb enough to say no tothis.

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