Page 98 of Voracious

My woman is still twitching and clenching around me so tightly it’s almost torturous when she whispers, “Promise to keep me?”

Stroking down her back with my knuckles, I kiss her cheek and give the promise easily.

“Forever, lisichka, I’ll be reincarnated with you.”

I would follow this woman through galaxies as dust just so our particles are near each other. When our hearts stop racing, I gently lay her down and get us both cleaned up. Every time I do it she smiles so softly it has a puddle forming in my chest.

Lying beside her so we’re face to face, she doesn’t need me to pull her closer and fits herself against my chest. I’ve missed out on this by making her come too many times previously, she usually has no energy left for anything other than trying to get her body not to shake. But now she’s talkative and wonder fills her voice.

“Imagine if all the planets are levels, the sun is the portal, and we go through each universe completing them.”

I love the way her brain works.

Humming to hear more when I can see it in her eyes, she doesn’t make me wait and becomes even more fucking adorable.

“Will you meet me in Venus, Dima?”

My arms tighten around her, and I rest my cheek on top of her head. “I’ll follow you anywhere. Hell would be heaven as long as I have you.”

I tap my fingers against her back in the pattern that soothes her, and she slowly begins to drift off. Once Ana is fully asleep, I take out the ring and place it on her finger. It suits her, as though it was made for her specifically hundreds of years ago.It’s too big and needs to be resized before I can officially have her wearing it, but I have my woman and the ring, the only thing left is completing her goal so I can do the same with mine. I hold the tips of her fingers so the ring can’t fall off as I bring her knuckles to my lips.

“One day I’m going to tell you exactly how much you mean to me,” I whisper against her knuckles before slipping the ring off. Brushing her hair out of her face with the tip of my finger, I watch how peaceful she is in this moment.

“On that day, there won’t be any nightmares escaping the filing cabinet again. You’ll be happy in the forest as B, as mine, and no one will ever confuse you again.” Her skin is warm as I kiss her temple with a deeper promise. “No one will ever hurt you again.”

I’m a chicken shit, but I can’t be the cause of her psychotic meditation and she only does it when she struggles to understand something. My hellion already has too many thoughts in her head, too many demons warring for her attention, so one by one we’ll kill them all until she’s free to hear how I feel.

As soon aswe get Nina away from these fucks I’m never going to hear the words sex club again. I’ll die a happy man if it’s written out of my memory.

Ana stands in the safehouse, facing off against her brothers yet again as we wait to go to a sex club in search for Nina, again. Val and Tali are pissed about their little sister going inside and I can see her hand twitching to slap them in the mouth. I hope she does it. The first time I met her she held a knife to my throatand called me a rude ogre, these fucks deserve worse for running interference, so she has to spend time away from me.

Her exasperation comes out as she stares at them.

“You’re making me agree with Vlad, do you know how fucked up that is?”

They both shrug, not giving a fuck or moving out of the way so we can leave. We’ve been through the same shit, TRR is heavily vetted, if these two idiots walk in they’ll ruin everything she’s worked for.

Vlad finally plays referee, getting his siblings under control.

“If anything happens, we’ll be outside and we’ll be able to get in, Pipsqueak has a friend in a very high place so have eyes inside too instead of relying on their earpieces to give us the full details.”

The friend comment has me turning to him, but he smirks.

It’s not that she doesn’t have friends, they’re all fucking here.

“You know Amon?” she asks her eldest brother.

The cunt who beat the fuck out of her. In what fucking world is that a friend. She rolls her eyes when she doesn’t get an answer and mutters, “Probably met him at a psychopath convention.” It’s not low enough for anyone to miss what she says but my hellion extends her voice, adding, “How often do you meet up? Do they give you donuts or cookies?”

Vlad’s monotonous voice comes out before dismissing us.

“Just blood I’m afraid, I’ll tell them you want donuts at the next meeting. Put your earpiece in, and don’t act like yourself.”

It’s like a switch goes off with knowing how close she is, and she doesn’t give him any shit like she usually does, she doesn’t even attempt to hit him when Ana never says bye to Vlad, it’s a shot to the kidneys with her full force.

There are only two outcomes: Nina is dead or alive. It’s fucked that I wish she was dead, but it’s the lesser evil. If she’s been alive all this time, the amount of fucked up shit she’s beenthrough will have done invisible damage to her mind. Ana is hyper focused and doesn’t react when I press my hand to her back, guiding her to the car we’ll take. There’s no emotion on her face and it’s scary as fuck to watch her lock herself away.She hasn’t done it in months, and now that I know who exists under the emotional guards, it makes the contrast harsher when she hides in herself.

As soon as the mask is pulled onto her face, she comes back to me and grabs my hand before we get in the car. The psycho meditation comes back but she stretches her arm out and threads her fingers through mine while she does it. The earpieces are on, and I mute our side so her brothers don’t hear anything as I say, “I’m going to need you to do something for me, lisichka.”

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