Page 89 of Vulnerate

She was excited when we were teenagers and had a big dopey smile so it can’t be an age thing.We’re older now so if she was ready all those years ago she has to be ready now.

I stroke her cheek while waiting for an answer. Each swipe of my thumb is begging her to be mine. Her melodious voice is right in my ear pulling me into false security.

“Why do you want to?”

Her question is dumb as fuck, I’m fucked over her. I always have been, and I always will be.I move back to see if she’s having some delusional seizure or some shit, however there’s nothing but vulnerability on her face. My beauty doesn’t even see that she’s perfect, that’s why she can’t understand she’s mine. Tucking her hair behind her ear, my voice is the softest it’s ever been.

“You’re the best part of my days, always have been. Even when we were younger and you weren’t talking to me, I liked being around you. Knowing you were there and hearing you laugh.”

Her smile is slow and too small. Dani was put on earth to be a stubborn shit and test my patience.

“We haven’t even dated.”

Her argument is unnecessary as fuck but at least I know what to do. I’ve never been on a date in my life, unless she counts her birthday and I turn smug pointing it out.

“I took you to that art show.”

She rolls her eyes like what I said is utter shit and pushes against my shoulders wanting space as she continues arguing, “So, I should marry you when I’ve had one date? Oh sorry, half a date on the day I found out my parents killed themselves?”

I don’t see what the problem is. But I play her game and give in. “Daniela Carvalho, please will you go out with me?”

I’ll drop to my fucking knees to get her to say yes. She’s a cruel goddess and straightens her shoulders feigning indifference.

“I’ll think about it.”

I form a plan of what could class as a date in this moment and thread our fingers together. I like feeling her hands in mine, how the little callouses on the tips of her fingers make her less gentle. I always thought it was a contradiction but now I know that she has this fire inside of her it makes sense. She twists trying to free herself from me and my fingers tighten around her palm stopping anything from breaking the connection even the woman herself. Her arm goes limp unable to shake me off as she leans up and kisses my cheek sweetly. The innocent gesture is accompanied with horrible words.

“Thank you for the offer, but I have to go home with Kacey. My date.”

What in the actual fuck.

She doesn’t get to leave me to go fuck someone else. So, I steal her favorite fucking word.

“No.”

She hardens her voice, and her eyes darken as she lies. “You don’t tell me what to do.”

Our noses touch as I pull her closer and my tone is deadly promising to follow through. “If you fuck her, I’ll chain you up and write my name on every inch of your skin.”

Dani strokes up my thigh and cups my dick letting out the truth she was hiding. “You didn’t let me come before, now you’re off the list.”

She couldn’t be quiet, and no one gets to hear those soft moans but me. If Tali had woken up I’d have to kill him for witnessing what’s mine. Letting go of her hand, I trail my fingers up her thigh to go and correct my mistake but she slams her legs shut kicking me out of heaven before I’ve even got through the gates and speaks against my face. “Go fuck someone else.”

I want to throttle her until she actually pays attention to the facts.

“I want you. I need you. The only reason I fuck you is because that is all you’ll give me. You don’t sleep in my bed, you don’t speak to me, so open your fucking legs and let me have one part of you.”

Her lips part and she softens her hands against me as her voice lowers. “I speak to you.”

Bullshit.

I can’t hold it in and prove that all she’s ever done is ignore me.

“The first birthday you spent with us, you wouldn’t look at me. I gave you that shitty rock thing you were obsessed with, and you thought it was from Tali. You ran to him and hugged him until he said it was from me, but you just mumbled at me. When you got your first period, Tali went to buy you everything you need, and he picked up diapers first because he’s a dumb fuck and I was the one who got you underwear and clothes, but you huggedhim.You even spoke to Dima more than you did me.”

Her voice is small, and she still avoids my eyes. “I didn’t mean to.”

I lose my resolve, as always, and kiss her cheek unable to take her sadness. My voice is softer, pleading with her to change her answer, as I whisper, “Stay with me tonight, not to fuck. I want to wake up with you in my arms.”

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