Page 166 of River & Crown
Yurrrrrr!
Kysre:
Do you always have to do the most?
Kyree:
Chill on me twin
Seeing that it was only the twins, I walked into the connected bathroom and propped my phone so I could wash my face. I loved the twins, but with the issues I had, they couldn't help me. Between wiping off my makeup, I checked the chat, waiting to see if Honey or Chosyn would pop up.
Me:
Chosyn......Honey......Navy.
After sending that last message, I washed my face and went through the rest of my skincare steps. I hadn't eaten anything but washing my face and not brushing my teeth seemed wrong. I brushed, gargled with mouthwash, and then walked back into the room, flopping onto the bed.
Kysre and Kyree were still going back and forth with themselves while I wondered where my girls were. Navy and I weren't close, but she was usually the first to reply. Instead of sending another text, I hit the group FaceTime and waited for them hoes to answer.
"River!" Honey squealed when she appeared on the screen. "I thought Crown locked your ass up somewhere for going to that damn remembrance."
"Nice to know you've spoken to Chosyn since she snitched on me," I huffed.
"Don't do that because you know damn well you shouldn't have taken your ass over there. What were you thinking?"
"I don't know!" I snapped. "I'm sorry, but I'm tired of everyone getting on me about my choices, all because they don't fucking understand."
"What is there to understand? Sincere died years ago. Not a month or a year, but years, meaning multiple. What is there for you to still hold on to?"
Sighing softly, I answered, "I'm holding not holding on to anything anymore. To get to this point, I had to go over there today. Something about seeing Sincere's mom so broken and grief-stricken was like having an out-of-body experience. Life is literally passing her bye. She's not living because it's what she wants to do... she's surviving until it's time for her to be with her kids. That's what I was doing."
"Chosyn tried to tell you that, River."
"I know, Honey, but sometimes seeing is better than hearing. I had to see that for myself because what y'all were telling me wasn't enough. I wish it were. Maybe then Crown and I wouldn't be in this weird place."
"Where is he?"
"He dropped me off at his place and said he needed a minute," I answered somberly. "It's for the best, tho'. Today was insane," I stressed.
"What happened? Chosyn told me she sent the boys to go get you, but that's all I know."
"What didn't happen is the better question, but I can't say over the phone."
"Say less. I'm on my way."
"Bring some wings, please. I've been craving utopia wings, fries with light salt, a side of Hawaiian sauce, and a ginger ale all day."
"Let me find out Crown knocked your ass up."
"Please don't be dumb." I laughed awkwardly.
"Mhm! Don't trip. I'ma bring a test too. See you in a few."
Honey hung up, and I laughed reading the messages between Kyree and Kysre. Right as I was about to exit the thread, Chosyn popped up.
Chosyn:
Sorry, my husband missed me. All I got is three minutes before I gotta feed him.
