Page 111 of River & Crown
"Do you?" I challenged, biting back the urge to crash my lips against her.
"Yup." She smirked.
"Ight then, what am I thinking right now?"
She unwrapped herself from my arms and stepped back. Her eyes dropped, drinking me in. I smirked, trying to play it cool, but Four didn't realize how sexy she was to me. She rubbed her chin, humming softly, her finger tapping in thought.
"Wassup, Mrs. I know you," I teased.
"Don't try to throw me off, Cortez. Let me cook."
"Ight, you got it." I held my hands up in surrender, letting her do her thing. Her stare wrapped around me like every part of me deserved to be seen twice. I don't think I've ever blushed in my life, but Four had a nigga's cheeks heating up. "Ight, time's up. What's on your husband's mind?"
"Murder." There was something in the way she said it. She was too calm, and that made it hit harder. "What Leah did made you angry because, in your mind, you failed to protect me. It doesn't matter that I might've started the fight. Leah hurt me, and that's unacceptable."
Four was talking her shit.
"Last night, Chosyn told me this would happen. I didn't want to believe it, and I said some things to her that I didn't mean."
"What did you say?"
"It doesn't matter because this is who you are."
"Who am I, Four?"
I almost didn't want to ask out of fear of what she might say. I wasn't blind to how our situation might've looked to muthafuckas who didn't know us. Terms like loving bombing or emotional manipulation could easily be thrown at our relationship because at every step it seemed I was forcing Four to fuck with me. None of it was true, but I'd be lying if I said I didn't understand how someone might come to that conclusion.
"Four," I murmured, needing her to say something.
The silence between us was too thick. Maybe she did think I was love bombing her, or maybe she thought I was a monster for the way I chose to handle certain situations. I shook my head not wanting to think the worst but shit the worst was at the front of my mind.
"It's cool you don't gotta say shit," I told her, rubbing the back of my neck. "I'ma go shower."
I turned to leave and felt her hand grab mine. Looking at her, I smirked. Ain't no fucking way Four felt any of the shit I was thinking. All four of her eyes gave her ass way. The depths of her brown irises housed something deeper than simple affection. It was love, adoration, and need. Maybe I was delusional and only seeing what I wanted to see but shit I didn't care.
"Crown, you're the person who wasn't afraid to step into my life and demand my heart after I promised to never give it to anyone again. The man who'll hype me up when I can't do it for myself, willing to murder and lay his life on the line for me. That's who you are, Crown. It's how you move without permission or hesitation." She paused, a faint smile tugging at her lips. "There's something about who you are for me and only me. It's not what I wanted?—"
"River, what the fuck are you saying right now?" I couldn't stop myself. My voice was harsh 'cause a nigga's heart was breaking at the thought of Four ending us after saying I was the perfect nigga for her.
"Why are you calling me River?" She frowned.
"That's who the fuck I'm talking to right now. Four knows better than to break up with me. Shit, River should know better too but it's cool 'cause I'm gon' teach her ass a lesson," I grumbled pissed off.
"Crown, what are you even talking about right now?" River laughed like my heart wasn't shattering into pieces.
"This shit's funny to you, huh?"
I jogged my ass back downstairs and grabbed the bag I got from the hardware store last night. Grabbing what I was looking for, I popped open the package and went back upstairs. River was still standing in the same spot, looking amused as fuck.
"Crown—" She tried to mask the laughter in her tone but I heard that shit.
"Yo, I can't believe yo' ass is doing this shit to me right now. My heart's crying out for you and your stupid ass is laughing like a nigga isn't in love. The fucked-up part is you're so fucking blind you won't even see this shit is a mistake."
"Wait, what?" River was laughing hard as fuck now.
I shot her ass a dirty look and she laughed harder. Grabbing my phone from the bed, I searched through Apple Music looking for a certain song. If I had to fucking mourn this break up, River was about to mourn her fucking vision.
"You really think this shit is funny. Cool. I'ma give you one more chance to bring Four the fuck out here, because River is gonna make me snap her fucking neck."
