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He licked and slurped, while applying just enough pressure with his thick ass fingers to send my sex deprived, pregnantbody into overload. Damn, I didn’t know how much I missed him filling me, until his lips parted from my trembling legs and something else replaced it. He rocked into me at a slow pace, sure to keep a grip on me as he hovered over my body. This shit felt everlasting, like it was our first time.

“You missed me, mama?” he pulled back looking at me.

Mouth open almost as wide as my legs, I nodded against the pillow because in this moment words would fail me. He was hitting me so deep that I just knew any word I spoke would be fluent in another language.

I lay on my back attempting to catch my breath, and him beside me. Though he called himself taking it easy, he still knew just what to do to send me and my body over the edge. Just enough and so much fucking more. I needed that, and from the looks of it he did too. He seemed to be in a different mind space than he was when he first walked in the room. As a matter of fact, his mental seemed to be more at ease than it had been lately. I know Zero has been carrying a lot, and I was unable to help him lighten it. Between whatever is going on in the streets and the fact that we were at my house instead of hers, I know he had a lot on his mind. The thing is, I couldn't make right what he wouldn't talk to me about. He was the type to ponder over stuff for a while before he ever brought it up. To me, that was a gift and a curse, because you would overthink yourself into the grave before anyone knew what you were thinking about. Plus, he was a man. He didn't want me to worry, though. I still worried.

There was movement on the side of me and before I knew it his hand was on my stomach and he was on his side. Turning my face, I looked in his direction. His eyes were on mine before his lips began to move.

“What are you thinking about?”

“Would you believe me if I said everything?” I blinked looking up at the ceiling.

He rubbed my belly and circular motion. “And would you listen to me if I told you didn't have to think about everything? I told you I had everything. I meant that.”

“I know, but it doesn't stop me from worrying. It doesn't stop me from wondering what's really going on under the façade you attempt to put up for me.” I turned my face to look at him.

“This won't last long. Before you know, we'll be back at my place preparing for them. So, for them can you worry a little less?”

I chuckled. “You’re asking me to worry less. How in the hell is that even possible?”

“Yeah, that was probably stupid as fuck. But I’m serious. Know that all this shit is going to be straight. Think past the present and get lost in what you want in the impending future.”

“Mhmm. I guess I can try that.” I rested my hand on his hand.

Chapter 17

End of Time

ZERO

Iguess it was time to stop picking up motherfuckers and collecting them like they were trophies. It was time to get to the bottom of this and confront what was coming for me. Something about that night with Empress was enough to put things into perspective for me. It was enough to remind me that I had to stop moving so reckless out here and Malik was right. I was moving out of a place of pain. Though I acted like what my sister did hadn't affected me, it did. That threw me for a loop. Mainly because at some point in life I would have gladly lay down and die for my sister. But when she shot me I saw that she would’ve never done that for me. Instead, she would have been the motherfucker with the gun, ready to lay my ass down. Hell, she was. She had laid my ass out behind a nigga she was fucking and given my address to a nigga who wanted my head. Never mind her seemingly trying to rectify that. The choice was made and there was no taking it back. Shit, what was I even thinking? I don’t know who that was who warned me. I might’ve been giving Amia too much credit even after everything.

Back to collecting motherfuckers though. Not only did we have Celia, but I had Rikov and his brother. The plan was to put them all in the same room and let them tell on each other. I mean, no one will make it out of that room alive, but it would be fun to watch them be crabs in a barrel and spill what was next on the plan. Oh, and I also wanted the location on Givens. Had I known he wanted me gone this bad I would have been gotten rid of him. I would have never allowed someone who hated me as much as it seemed that he does to live on the same earth as I did. I would have seized his fucking existence long before now. You had to hate a motherfucker pretty ducking bad to team up and plot on them.

“So are you gonna go in here and practice some fucking finesse, or do I have to stand on my tippy toes ready to step in front of you err’time you go for your waist?” Malik asked.

I chuckled. “Let's just say I might have had a heart to heart with baby girl, so it's time for me to get my shit together.”

“Means you got some. Glad to fucking hear that.” He rubbed his hands together with a smile on his face.

I couldn't help but laugh because he was right. Something about Empress calmed me in the worst way. Being in her space, between her thighs and in her face reminded me of how much I had to lose. It also reminded me that I was moving not only out of a place of pain, but a place of anger. I could have lost her. I could have lost our children. Hell, I could have not been here to be a father to our children. Like I said, moving out of a place of anger and pain. Moving, like today or tomorrow was a promise. Most niggas live like that, but I couldn't. At this age and the creation of life. So I couldn't move like today or tomorrow was the last because I had to plan for the next day, the next week, the next month, and the next year. Shit I had to plan for forever because that’s how long I needed with mine.

“Back in your right head space, how do you want to play this?” Malik asked, interrupting me from my thoughts.

“Easy, All of them will tell them themselves.”

“And how do you plan to get that in order?” I could feel his eyes on me as I drove in the direction of the spot.

“By putting them all in the same room.”

“Then they’ll tell on themselves for sure and give up Givens as well as anybody else possibly working with them,” he said aloud realizing my plan.

I nodded, pulling into the park outside of the warehouse. “And another thing I know we’ve been on one mission lately, but I’m dead ass serious about you opening your own shit.”

He chuckled. “I’m not about to get into that with your ass too. Ree said the same thing and I’ma tell you like I told her. Well not exactly like I told her, but it’s a possibility.”

“I’m already knowing yeen tell her nutty ass that, but whatever you wanna believe works fine wi—” I wasn’t able to finish my sentence because my phone began to ring. I glanced at the console seeing that it was my auntie.

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