Her lips were cold but soft, and when she kissed me back, even for that one heartbeat, it undid me. I hadn’t even realized I was bound that tight.
Then I pulled away.
Hard.
“Shit.” I stepped back, heart pounding in my chest like I’d just made the worst call of my life. “That was a mistake.”
She was with Asher earlier today. And she was Lucy’s friend.
What thehellwas wrong with me?
Her face went still. Blank. Like she was slamming a door shut before I could explain.
I hated how that felt.
I didn’t give her a chance to say anything. I shoved a hand through my hair and turned away.
Not because I didn’t want more. But because I did.
As I walked off, boots crunching over snow I couldn’t feel anymore, something smacked past my shoulder and hit a tree with a softthud.
I stopped.
Turned.
She was standing there, one mittenless hand full of snow, her jaw tight, her expression tight.
“You missed,” I said, voice low.
She shrugged. “Didn’t mean to hit you.”
Bullshit. The second snowball in her palm said otherwise.
My lips twitched before I could stop them. She saw it, and that only seemed to fire her up more. She launched the second one.
It hit weakly and burst apart across my chest.
“Great,” I muttered, brushing it off. “You kiss like a damn arsonist but throw like a toddler.”
Her eyes narrowed. “You kissedme, remember? And then ran off like I was contagious.”
I flinched. Not outwardly, I was better than that, but inside, it landed. Hard.
I didn’t know what I was doing. Not with her. Not with any of this.
“That’s not what happened,” I said, voice rough. “I didn’t run.”
She crossed her arms. “Then explain it. I think I deserve that much.”
I looked at her, standing there in that ridiculous oversized coat, cheeks flushed, eyes burning like she’d take me down if she could, and I felt my chest tighten.
Damn, she was a mess. So was I.
“I can’t,” I said, finally. “Not without making it worse.”
Her mouth pressed into a line. “You already made it worse.”
She wasn’t wrong.