Page 40 of Eternally Yours
Wow, is that the only reason you keep me around? So that you can have a decent night’s sleep? I feel used.
I smile at my last message. He knows I’m joking, and even if it were true, I wouldn’t mind. I enjoy being around him, too.
Big Guy
Oh, trust me, baby. That’s not the only reason I keep you around, and I just can’t wait to show you the others. I’ll be the one feeling used by the end.
Me
Dirty boy.
Big Guy
You have no idea.
Big Guy
I’ll pick you up at seven, and you’re free to dress up all you want.
Me
Can’t wait.
With thirty minutes left until Silas picks me up, I’m a mess. I’m ready to go, but my mind is all over the place. I keep thinking back to what he said the other night about wanting to kiss me. About my mind, heart, and body not being on the same page. He’s right. A part of me is still holding back because I’m afraid of what it will mean to fully let go.To give myself away to him completely.
I don’t want to be afraid. I don’t want to hold back anymore, but that doesn’t stop me from feeling this way. It’s like my body knows the minute I give in, life as I know it will cease to exist.It won’t just be me anymore, it will be Silas and me.
It’s why I didn’t kiss him myself last time. I wanted to.God, did I want to.But I know that the instant it happens, the moment I let his lips take mine, I won’t be the same. I’ll forever be ruined.Forever his.
A kiss from Silas Hayes won’t be like every other boy I’vekissed in the past. No, this one will be different. This one will change everything. It will be earth-shattering, and heart-stopping, soul-shaking. He will devour me entirely, consume me. He’ll become my favorite drug.My addiction.
And I’m ready to let it consume me.
I’m touching up my makeup in my en suite when I hear voices coming from the kitchen.
“Cece! Your man is here!” Emma yells in a singsong manner.
I exit the bathroom and walk over to the full-length mirror. My hair has been curled to perfection, long brown locks hanging down my back.
I decided on a long-sleeve, knee-length black dress. From my shoulders to my waist, it’s perfectly fitted lace, and the bottom is made of sheer chiffon that flares out. It has a scooped neckline, keeping my girls fully covered. As big as they are, they don’t need any more attention.Although, I’m pretty sure Silas wouldn’t mind.
My makeup is a little bit heavier than usual, but still not extreme. Light bronze eye shadow, cat eye eyeliner, mascara, and nude lipstick. This will be the first time he sees me like this, and I’m anxious.What if he doesn’t like a girl with makeup?
Satisfied with my reflection, I grab the pair of black platform stiletto pumps I had left by the door and slip my feet in.
These heels are so high I rarely wear them in fear of falling. But I thought it would be nice to stand a little taller next to Silas, and if anything happens, I know he’ll catch me.
Picking up my small clutch from my desk, I draw in some air and exhale heavily through the mouth before grabbing the door handle and making my way to my man.
When I reach the kitchen, they’re in the midst of a conversation. It takes a moment before someone turns my way, Emma being the first. She takes one look at me and whistles loudly with a knowing smirk. She knows without me needing to tell her what my plan is tonight.
Operation seduce Silas Hayes.
Silas picks up on Em’s reaction and turns my way. “Holy fuck...” His heated gaze travels down my body, then back up. It’s so strong, I feel like he’s physically touching me.
“Hey, Big Guy,” I say in a sultry voice as I bite my lip.
His eyes zone in on my lips, and I watch his throat work as he swallows. He pulls on the collar of his dress shirt, undoing the first button. “Fuck, Minnie.”
