Just as it all gets too much, he removes his hand.
I gasp for air—and I feel myself lose control.
I climax so hard I see stars. I’m screaming, crying, and holding onto him for dear life as he coaxes me through it.
“That’s it. Such a good girl,” he whispers in my ear.
My body trembles as I come down. He doesn’t let me go. He doesn’t even remove his fingers.
When I open my eyes, he’s just watching me.
“You asshole,” I choke out.
He sits up and slides his hand out of me with a smirk.
With all the strength I can muster, I sit up and launch myself at him.
I shove at his chest, but he doesn’t budge.
I keep hitting him. Letting it out. All of it.
The pain.
The heartbreak.
The devastation.
The loss.
The lies.
The fantasy I believed.
“I hate you!” I scream.
I pound my fists against his chest as tears stream down my cheeks.
“I hate you,” I say again, my voice breaking.
He remains rigid. Taking it.
“Say it back, goddamn it!” I sob.
His hands clamp over my wrists. I look away, trying to steady my breathing.
“Let it all out, baby. I can take it.”
I shake my head.
“You did this to me!”
“I know. And I’m so fucking sorry.”
I blink through my tears and see the raw pain behind those green eyes I loved so much.
“Why can’t I let you go?” I whisper.
He tugs me against him and wraps his arms around me, holding me tight. His heart beats wildly under my cheek.