Lani cleared her throat, looking everywhere but me. I frowned as she played with the tablecloth.
The table was silent as Uriel sat back down in Lucifer’s lap. The next course, a raspberry sorbet, was served, and Lani picked up the next spoon. She dipped it in quickly and shoved a large portion in her mouth.
Chapter Twenty-Nine
Lani
Iswallowedthelastsorbet from my bowl, and that was that.
I kept myself quiet for the rest of dinner, watching the gods talk about their parents, uncles, aunts, cousins like they were one big happy family. Which it hasn’t been that way for long. For thousands of years, they fought and picked on each other. It was just recently, with the pairing of souls, the gods settled down and began to get along with each other.
Poseidon shuffled in his seat and laid his head on my shoulder. I ran my fingers through his hair, and he instantly calmed as I did. Something told me he had gone through much more than the other gods he called his brothers and sisters.
These pairings the table discussed were not just with other gods and goddesses. Lucifer’s mother was a werewolf, along with Ares’s mate. Hermes was mated to a vampire, but there was yet to be a human mated to a god.
A human mated to a god?
How did I get all tangled up in this mess?
We finished our meal, and we all departed to our separate ways, thankfully. As much as I enjoyed Uriel and her commentary, she was not exactly making me calm. However, she was hilarious to watch, and I found her dynamic with Lucifer entertaining. If I had a sister, I would want her to be just like Uriel. She made me laugh countless times speaking about the Underworld. I didn’t know the Underworld could be that exciting, but I think it was all her that made everyone down there not seem as scary.
Uriel’s pleasant attitude was welcome, but I did not wish for her touch. I didn’t enjoy feeling out of control. I made sure she didn’t touch me after she offered to do so again to help me sleep. As great as the high was to no longer be stressed, I had a lot to think about.
Poseidon led us back to his bed, and taking Lucifer’s lead, he picked me up like his bride and carried me as Lucifer had with Uriel. I laughed down the hallway as Poseidon raced to his chambers and locked the door with a wave of his hand.
“I’ll get your night clothing,” he muttered and kissed my cheek.
This god was going to give me cavities with how sweet he was being.
Poseidon returned with a white tunic, similar to the one he had me wear earlier. I undressed right there, pulling off my top and my long skirt as he tried not to stare at my nakedness.
His innocence was so pure and naïve that I had the urge to take advantage of him and ruin him.
His hands lingered over my ass as he dressed me, then apologized profusely like he wasn’t supposed to touch me.
“You can touch me all you like.” I stood up on my tiptoes and nipped at his bottom lip. His ragged breaths could still be heard as I crawled into bed with no underwear, giving him the perfect view of my backside. His face matched his vibrant red hair, and he choked on his own spit as he rounded the bed to keep his wandering eyes away.
He was going to be so much fun.
I rode the butterflies in my stomach as we climbed under the covers. Poseidon didn’t ask. He pulled me into his arms, and I slept with my head underneath his chin. He shortened his beard with a blink of an eye, so it only covered his face and no longer hung past his collar bone. I liked it however he wore it, but he said this way his beard wouldn’t choke me while we slept.
The longer beard was fun to pull on, but maybe I could start pulling on his hair.
As I watched him lower his hand, the bright fish that hovered over his room dimmed their lights, and we sat in the darkness. Beautiful creatures such as eels, jellyfish, and an abundance of fish swirled in a dance as if to put on their own show. I gazed at it in awe and felt Poseidon’s breathing steady.
It didn’t take long for me to hear Poseidon’s light snores, his heavy breathing evening out and his arms tightening around me as he slept. I too, should have fallen asleep, but my thoughts continued to awaken me with more questions, more “what ifs.”
Poseidon already said he would not let me go; I was his mate. A goddess said that I was his perfect match, and the gods seemed to take great pride in that. It was as plain as day with Lucifer and Uriel, who knows what those two could have gotten into trouble with if they hadn’t found each other.
And I didn’t want to go, not in the slightest. I wasn’t sure what all this bond entailed, but I knew my heart, and it screamed to let Poseidon hold it in his hand.
But what of my brother? What of Candice? What would happen to them once I solidified this, whatever this was?
Was I even considering it?
I was, I truly was.
For the first time in a long time, I’d found happiness. I’d worked most of my life for Koma to make sure he could have a better life even without our parents. I didn’t blame him for it, I did it because I loved him and now that he had his own life… What about me?