Page 9 of Saving Micah

I still my emotions and turn my face into a mask before I turn.

“Yeah? What’s up Mi?” I play it as casual as I can. I can’t let her see me. I can’t let her in. How do I know that she wasn’t into Levi as much as he seems to be into her?

All these years, has she been secretly in love with Levi like I’ve been secretly in love with her?

“I don’t know,” she says. “You looked mad back there for some reason.”

“No, I’m cool.” I tell her as I bite my tongue.

“Ok.” She says. She looks shaken. Like she doesn’t know what to say to me. That’s a first for us.

Chance walks up to us then, oblivious to the tension as he asks us if we are ready to go. We both nod to him and start walking to the car.

When we climb in, everyone is quiet except Kelly and Macy in the back. They are discussing a boy they saw in the theater. I zone out to their chatter. I just want to get home and in my bed. I’m tired of hanging with these people today. I think this may be the worst day of my life.

Saturday morning, I wake up to the sun shining in my face. I cover my eyes with my pillow to block the light. Memories from the night before flood me and I groan. How am I going to face everyone? I’m still pissed and hurting. Ugh. How did this get so dang complicated?

I roll out of bed to get ready for the day. It’s the weekend and I don’t want to be here when dad decides he wants to be inside.

I jump in the shower and quickly wash off before throwing on some jeans and a t-shirt.

As I’m getting ready to walk out my bedroom door I hear him in the kitchen. My blood runs cold. I didn’t beat him out. I quickly scan my room and look out the window. Can I get out of it before he comes this way? I know he is already drunk. He starts drinking on Saturday mornings by six am. I still myself and take a deep breath. I can do this. I can make it out the front door without an altercation or any words. I just need to wait to make sure he’s in his room or passed out somewhere.

A little bit passes and I don’t hear anything. I slowly open my door and look out. I don’t see anything when I look towards the kitchen. I slowly turn my head to look towards his bedroom. Once I get turned straight I feel the punch to my jaw. Damn it. He was standing there waiting. I quickly jump back and slam my bedroom door and lock it. He’s pounding on the door.

“Open up you little shit! This is my house! You won’t lock the doors in my house!” He’s yelling at me and I’m scurrying to the window and trying to get it open. My jaw is throbbing. I know it’s going to be bruised. Again. “You have until I count to three to open this door before I bust it in!”

I finally get the window up and start to climb out. He’s on two when my feet hit the ground. I turn around to close the window and I see the door come into my room. He’s busted it down. I stand there and look at him. As he gets closer to the window, I get farther away from it.

“I’ll see you when you get home tonight. Son.” My spine tingles as I look into his cold black eyes. He is nothing but pure evil now. I turn and run to Micah’s house. That is where I always go.

Davis opens the door right when I step on the porch. “Come in, son.” I walk into his living room as he shuts the door before following me into the room.

“What happen this time, Zant?” Mr. Davis ask me as I sit on the couch. He’s walking towards the kitchen when I speak.

“I don’t know, sir.” I don’t think he heard me as he brings me an ice pack back for my jaw but, I don’t feel much like repeating myself.

Mr. Davis just looks at me for a few minutes before he speaks, “Z, I hate this. I know that he is going to wait up for you tonight and I don’t want you going home.” He scratches at his bald head. “What did y’all have planned for today?”

“Uh. I don’t really know. We didn’t talk much about it last night. If I had to guess, I would say the park.” I speak slowly as to not hurt my face anymore while Mr. Davis nods his head.

I lean back on the couch and close my eyes. The pain is getting to me. This throbbing never gets easier to take. It’s been happening more and more in the last couple of years. He sneak attacks me when I’m least expecting it now. I never have time to defend myself. As bad as it hurts, the anger I feel because of his physical abuse towards me only grows for the man that is supposed to be my father. He’s no father.

I hear a gasp and slowly open my eyes. Micah is standing there with a hand over her mouth and her eyes wide. “Zant,” she says behind her hand, “what happened? Who did this? Never mind. I know who. Why?” The mixed emotions of fear and compassion in her eyes melts my anger towards her a little. I can’t stay mad at her. It’s futile to even act like it. No matter what, I will love her.

“Roy.” I croak out through my dry mouth.

She shakes her head and walks towards me. She grabs the ice pack to pull it off my jaw to get a better look. I just watch her. How did yesterday happen? She’s messing around with the dish towel that is wrapped around the ice pack that Mr. Davis gave me.

“I didn’t even know that girls name last night.” Wait. What? Did I just say that out loud? I quickly close my eyes for a second. When I open them again, she has frozen but she isn’t looking at me. “I’m sorry. That didn’t mean to come out like that.” I rush through to cover up my stupidity.

She ignores my latest statement, “I know. So why did you kiss her?”

“You know? You know what?” I’m confused. How does she know that I didn’t know that girls name? How does she know that she isn’t my new girlfriend or something?

“I’m not stupid Z. Well, maybe I am. But, when I came back and she wasn’t there, I knew something was up. It doesn’t take a genius to figure out something like that? I just want to know why you took Levi’s bet.”

The air leaves the room. She knows about the bet. I’m not breathing and my vision is going blurry. My stomach just dropped to my feet.

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