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“Ok.” I tell her and she cranks the car.

Chapter 25

Micah

There goes my hero

Watch him as he goes

There goes my hero

He’s ordinary

{‘My Hero’ – Foo Fighters}

I’m grinning like a fool and singing at the top of my lungs along with Miley Cyrus.

‘I got my hands up, there’re playing my song / I know I’m gonna be okay / yeah, it’s a party in the U.S.A.’

I can’t believe what happened that night. It changed our lives in ways that we never would have guessed. I can’t believe what actually happened to Roy but, I’m not going to pretend that I’m not ok with it. I’m glad he’s gone and I’m glad it went the way it did. I will never say that to Zant. He needs to move forward and not blame himself. Roy had it coming and in a twisted way, I’m glad Zant was the one to deliver the blow.

I don’t agree with why he left. I never will. I needed him to help me through college. I needed him to hold my hand and walk me through life.

But then again. I didn’t.

Zant leaving me helped me in ways that he didn’t know they would. Or maybe he did.

Zant leaving helped himself as well. While I don’t agree with why he leftme.I do understand why he had to leave his house.

I pulled out of my driveway and told him to grab the CD case. His eyes lit up as he understood what was going to happen.

I let him pick first since I was driving.

“Imagine” by John Lennonbegan to play and I glanced at him and smiled.

After that song, we turned the radio down and began to talk. He told me about his time away. It didn’t hurt as bad as I thought it was going to. I learned a lot about him that I didn’t know. He told me about his time at the gym and how people helped him learn of an outlet to let his anger out. He told me about him finding a job as a mechanic at a shop that was ran by a man that reminded him of my dad.

I told him about college. He said he wanted to attend college at some point to learn more about cars and engines and such. We didn’t talk about Roy. We didn’t talk about what happened. It was like we picked up where we left off without all the darkness and all the baggage.

“I really missed you Mi. Please know that,” he said.

I do know that. I know that his heart was in the right place. I know he needed to find himself.

“I missed you too, Z. You leaving me and leaving here hurt me but, to be honest, it helped to.” He looks at me and smiles. It doesn’t reach his eyes but I think it lifted a burden off him in some way.

We continued to ride back roads and listen to music until the sun up. Then we went back to my apartment where we crashed until that afternoon. He slept on the couch while I slept in my room.

I told him about my nightmares and how they came sometimes. He wanted to stay near me in case I had another one after everything he told me.

I honestly don’t think I’ve slept better than I did that night.

Epilogue

Zant

3 months later

“Come on girls. We need to be out the door in two minutes.” I’m yelling at Micah, Kelly, and Macy while standing in the foyer to my house.

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