Page 23 of Not That Impossible

“Oh. Good, you’re still there. I thought you’d hung up on me.”

“I’m tempted.”

“Are you getting shy again?”

“No.”

“If you are, though, it’s fine.”

“I’m not shy.” He snorted an irritated breath. “Did it really seem to you like I didn’t know what I was doing?”

“You’re a natural,” I said encouragingly. “When you’ve gained some experience and you’re more relaxed about things, you won’t be afraid of penises.”

“Right. Jasper?”

“Yes?”

“I am not afraid of dicks.”

“Okay. It would be normal if you were, being a formerly heterosexual man in his thirties encountering them for the first time. But okay.”

“I am not afraid of dicks,” he said, biting the words out.

“I hear what you are saying.”

“Do youunderstandwhat I am saying, is what I want to know.”

I thought about how he had run his hands hungrily all over my willing naked body, except my dick. “Yes,” I said kindly.

“Jasper,” he said, “the reason I didn’t touch your dick is not because I’m afraid of dicks, what the fuck.”

“Okay.”

“You want to know why I didn’t touch your dick?”

“If you want to tell me, then yes, but Liam? No judgment.”

He said furiously, “It’s because I wanted to take your perfect, beautiful cock in my hand, and jerk you off until you were writhing and begging for me to let you come.”

My cheeks scorched with heat. “What?” I said faintly.

“Yeah. I wanted you sobbing beneath me. Shaking with need. I wanted to pin you down and hold you on the edge until you cried, and only then would I let you go over. I’d watch you come apart under me, and then if you asked very, very nicely, I’d let you watch while I jerked off on you.”

The blood was pounding in my ears. “So…not a gay virgin?”

“No.”

“Well. Um.” I had no idea what to say. “Offer still stands?”

“The generous offer to let me give you a candlelight massage to Enya?”

I scowled. “You don’t have to say it like that. I was being supportive and understanding, Liam. I was trying to create a safe and unthreatening encounter for someone who might freak out at the thought of a dick.”

“Enya, though?”

“Oh, all my seniors at the gym love her music.”

He hung up.

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