Page 49 of After Anna

“I didn’t at Congreve.” Anna shot her a skeptical look.

“You will here. People are more open.” Maggie kept her voice gentle, so Anna didn’t feel criticized, just encouraged.

“Still. These girls are pretty, and pretty girls are the same everywhere.” Anna opened a Facebook page fromPhrasesmagazine, which showed a group of artsy Goth girls. “This is my tribe.”

“Youarepretty, and you’re not Goth.”

“I had a Goth friend at Congreve. I liked her, but she left school. This is her.” Anna hit a few buttons, calling to the screen a window that showed a head shot of a wan-looking girl with matte-black hair, black eye makeup, and a red-paper crown. “Jamie Covington. She called herself a Visigoth. She said that was a Goth with contact lenses.”

Maggie smiled. “Why did she leave school?”

“Same reason I did. It is hard to fit in there if you’re different. She tried to start a Wiccan club.” Anna shifted her gaze, with an ironic smile. “You can’t see a Wiccan with a Congreve totebag, can you?”

“No.” Maggie laughed, getting the picture. Anna had been on the outside and identified with the outsiders.

“She went to Ellen too. We both liked her.” Anna glanced over. “And you know what, I don’t think I need to start with a therapist down here.”

“Really?” Maggie wasn’t sure she agreed, but kept a pleasant expression. “Why?”

“I don’t know, I just don’t feel like I need it.” Anna shrugged. “If I need to, I’ll call Ellen. She said I could if I wanted to.”

“I told her that we would get you somebody here. You’re going to have a lot of changes to go through, and it might be good to have someone to talk to.”

“I’ll have you, won’t I?”

“Of course,” Maggie answered, touched. “And I think we need to get you a lawyer here, too.”

“What about James?” Anna frowned.

“Noah thinks you’re better off with someone down here and he’s probably right.”

“You guys want to fire James?” Anna recoiled. “I don’t. He hasn’t done anything wrong and he knows me. You liked James, didn’t you? You said you did.”

“Yes, I did.” Maggie kicked herself for bringing it up, so soon. “Okay, I’ll talk it over with Noah, okay?”

“Okay.” Anna hesitated. “Hey, can I talk to you about him? You can’t tell him about it, okay?”

“Okay,” Maggie answered, suppressing her discomfort.

“I don’t think he likes me. When we were picking out the sheets at Bed Bath & Beyond, he was, well, cold.”

Maggie cringed. “He doesn’t know you that well, Anna. He can be on the reserved side.”

“No, that wasn’t it.” Anna shook her head, her mouth a flat line. “I tried to get him to help me with the sheets, but it was all about Caleb. He was with him the whole time. It was like I didn’t even exist.”

“Oh no.” Maggie felt a wave of guilt. Caleb had been an only child for so long, and they both lavished a lot of attention on him. It was possible that Noah had inadvertently paid Caleb more attention than Anna. “I’m so sorry that happened.”

“You don’t have to apologize, but what if he doesn’t want me living here?”

“Yes, he does, Anna.” Maggie covered Anna’s hand, with itsbeleaguered fingernails. “He wants you here, I know he does, you’ll see.”

“Are you sure? Because we can always change it, like I could board at another school.” Anna’s tone strengthened, newly distant. “I don’t have to live here, I just wanted to.”

“And I want you to,” Maggie rushed to say, her heart speaking out of turn. She couldn’t lose Anna when she had just found her again. “Noah wants you to live here, too. Whatever happened at Bed Bath & Beyond was a misunderstanding.”

“Please don’t say anything to him. Do you promise?”

“Yes, I promise.” Maggie squeezed Anna’s hand. “Don’t worry about it. Everything is going to be just fine.”

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