“So the Moon Goddess?”
Gannon nods.
“But if hunters wanted to get rid of Lycans, why would they want to become one?”
“Same reason anyone would, to gain immortality. Landeena and Azure blood is the only blood that could make humans immortal. We believe that is why her parents kept her hidden from everyone except those in the castle.”
“They were worried someone would try to take her,” I state with a sigh.
“And they did,” Gannon says.
“So what, she just has to bite them?”
“Yes, there is more to it though. For me to change you, I only have to mark you and….” He pauses for a second, but I note his hesitation when he changes what he is going to say. “It is part of the reason Kyson wouldn’t do it. You could sire to him and basically become an extra mate. It’s rare for that to happen when you already have a mate, but it has happened in the past,” Gannon explains.
“Can Azalea do it?” I ask thoughtfully. Gannon clenches his jaw but nods.
“Yes, but I would rather change you myself.”
“I know, but-”
“You think you aren’t worthy of me, but you are. I am the one not worthy of you, Abbie. I want to be with you. I don’t care about your past or the shit that has happened. I told you I could wait for anything more as long as I can have you as mine. The rest we can figure out. Just let me love you. That is all I am asking for,” he says, cutting me off. I can feel his anger simmering below the surface.
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Gannon sighs heavily. “I’m sorry. I just want to be the one to do it.”
“Okay, I won’t ask Azalea.” He lets out a breath.
“But-”
“But you still aren’t sure you want to be a Lycan,” Gannon says.
“No. I was gonna ask if we could do it tomorrow and not when we got back home,” I say, rubbing my temples.
“Wait. You will do it?” Gannon asks. I look up at him to see his shocked face.
It’s true, I had been unsure, even amid the multiple times he asked me. The answer was always no. But in the last day or so, I’ve been feeling a change of heart. I could be with Azalea, and I had Gannon. I love Gannon, but I also worry he will get bored of me since I am not even sure I can have sex or be with anyone that way. At least not yet anyway, but would he still want me as my broken, damaged self?
“Yes, I will let you change me, but do we have to-”
“No. We don’t have to have sex, Abbie, but you know it would eventually send you into heat with me marking you. Azalea changing you won’t, neither would Kyson because he has a mate, but I don’t have a mate. So I wouldn’t just be changing you. I would be claiming you.”
I gulp at his words.
“I just want to be clear on that. You will go into heat eventually,” Gannon says. I swallow and nod.
“I know, just, I want a little bit more time.”
“And you have all the time you want, and we don’t have to do it tomorrow. I just ask that if you are going to become a Lycan. When you choose that, I just hope you choose me to do it.”
“Okay. But we can tomorrow, I just want to check on Azalea first. Do you think she is awake? I wouldn’t mind calling her too since it will be too late to see her by the time we get home.”
“You can try her on my phone,” Gannon says, handing his phone to me. I take it from him, and he tells me the pin to get in it.
“You know how to call her?”
I nod. I had plenty of practice, but when I notice the time, I decide to send a voice text since I can’t write. Usually Gannon types for me.