Page 5 of Red

I love how needy she is.For me.

Fuck!

My cock is throbbing now while streaks of precum drop to the wooden floor of the terrace. I’ve never stepped this close before and the impossible ache in my balls is my punishment. It’s also the first time when she does this, and the starving beast inside me couldn’t be morepleased. I’m not sure at which point my free hand wraps around my girth as I start stroking my shaft. Unashamed, I continue to watch her attempts to make herself come, adjusting to her tempo.

Red whimpers quietly while her moves are becoming faster and faster each second. Getting desperate, she bucks her hips against her hand. Yet, it doesn’t look like she’s finding any relief—no surprise there. Eventually, she fully freezes, furrowing her brows.

Her body is calling out for me. She doesn’t even know me. Doesn’t know I exist. But no one will ever be able to satisfy her the way I can—not even herself. She’s fucking made for me.

With a huff, she gives up, withdrawing her hand from under the material.

I relate to her sexual frustration

She takes a small rectangle device, which I know is a contemporary telephone, from the nightstand beside her bed. Her pretty face gets illuminated by the faint glow of the portable screen she’s looking at, while she focuses for a longer moment.

“One day shipping, thank youAmazon!” she suddenly says to herself, beaming, before putting it away.

I have no idea what any of it means, but her smile is the best part of my day. It always is.

I’m still hard in my hand, and the crave is not going away. I want her so badly I swear my infatuation with her will be the death of me. All I’m able to think about is worshipping her body, cherishing every square inch of her milky skin, pleasuring her with my tongue just the way she needs, and finally helping her reach climax over and over again.

However, I postpone my routine jerk off session and enjoy the last moments around her tonight.

She settles down in the sheets and I stay until her breathing evens out and I’m certain she fell asleep. But even while I run to my lair, which I set up for the time being in the nearby forest, I keep smelling her.

She’s ready for me.

Am I ready to show her myself?

All the choices that have led me to this point suddenly feel like mistakes as the wrongness of my actions becomes a stark reality.

How will I ever be able to gain her trust?

My prowling is nothing but a complete violation of her privacy that leaves a bitter taste for her perception of me. Every glimpse I tookwithout her consent taints the success of our bond because it’s a cruel abuse of the respect she deserves.

The toll this is taking on the integrity of my soul becomes a catalyst for change. It’s time to break free from the safety of the shadows and face the harsh light of accountability.

Our path forward is uncertain although one thing is clear—this can no longer continue. Not like that.

4.

Prey

Late morning the next day, I get a video call back from Lana. Before I answer, I sigh with a relief. I’ve already started overthinking the situation afraid she’s ignoring me. To be fair, it’s been kinda strange between us since my move, and I’ve been feeling down. Long distance friendship may be a bitch, but it shouldn’t be this hard.

“What’s up? You called last night.” She’s still a mess in her bed.

“Yeah, I was just thinking about you.” I tell her about my decision to keep the house, at least for now. And going out with Dean. Even about my plans to go look for a dog at the shelter.

“Wow, look at you all grown up!” I hear the judgement in her sleepy voice. Or maybe it’s thejealousy?

“It all just fell into place. I’d be stupid not to give it a shot, wouldn’t I?” She never answers so I change the topic, “I’ll be visiting my parents for Thanksgiving. I could stop by the city then.”

“Sure, whatever.” Her ignorant tone hurts my feelings.

“Whatever?”

“Jules, it’s barely October. I don’t think that much ahead.” She stares at me on the screen to the side, but I know she’s looking directly in my eyes. “You’ve really changed, you know.”

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