Page 21 of We Could Be Better

“Im pregnant! I have morning sickness every morning just give me some time and it will pass over.”

The look on his face held no emotion so I couldn’t tell if he was happy as hell or mad as hell and the way I was feeling at the moment I didn’t fucking care. Once I finally finished puking my guts up I finished getting dress and we made our way to the park. Cash hadn’t said anything to me since I told him I was pregnant and that was fine; I didn’t feel like hearing his voiceanyway. I wanted to eat and have lots of fun with my daughter. I had a lot of making up to do.

“The fuck you doing Kyra” Cash asked as I was getting ready to go on the roller coaster.

I rolled my eyes at him and continued up the stairs to the ride. Before I knew it this crazy mutha fucka grabbed my arm and jerked me down. It takes my sister to tell yall how the white people were looking at us. I even saw a few people with their cell phones out recording us. I was too embarrassed this crazy fool aint talk to me the whole time we been up here but got the nerve to jump stupid when I try to get on a ride.

“Bitch he aint playing” I heard O’nika shout while laughing

“Cash, why would you embarrass me like that?”

“If you would’ve fucking got down than I wouldn’t have to be in your face pissed off right now.”

“Dawg you haven’t talked to me not one time since we been here, so why the fuck you in my face now?”

He got so close to my face our nose were damn near touching. I looked in his eyes and saw that he was indeed mad at me, but honestly I didn’t give a fuck. This the shit I was speaking on Cash had life and bullshit confused. He couldn’t keep his dick in his pants but want to be over here playing fucking daddy.

“You damn right I haven’t and I still won’t talk to you. But I refuse to let your selfish ass hurt my fucking child that you are carrying or is the baby for me. You know you love keeping shit away from people. Don’t know if I can believe anything you say.”

He had the nerve to say that shit with a damn smirk on his face. I was fucking heated I tried to act hard and not cry but before I knew it my damn eyes were burning for the tears. I just left the park and asked the driver to bring me back to the room. He wanted to enjoy his vacation with his daughter and family then I was going to let just that happen. I packed my shit and caught the private jet back home. “FUCK CASH” I screamed

I made it back home and pulled out my phone to send my sister a text message.

Me: Dreka, sorry for leaving but I think it’s best I let Cash spend time with his daughter alone. Do me a favor, when yall get back please bring Pai to me. I rather not see or talk to Cash. Thanks

Cash: Bitch you just leave your daughter and don’t say shit. You will never see her again

Cash: you dumb as fuck

Cash: when I get back I’m talking your stupid ass to court and after I tell the judge how you neglect you child let’s see who will get her.

Dreka: Cash going crazy! He cut the trip short

Mina: Tf happened

Nik: Call me ASAP

After reading everybody text messages I decided to turn my phone off. I can’t believe how hateful Cash is being towards me. There’s no way he was hurting more than I was I was young but I still took care of my child. I never missed anything I loved her but I had to get everything around me in order first. I couldn’t be stranded on the streets with a child; I had to make sure home was straight. I just had to make sure home was inorder. If Cash couldn’t understand that while his hoe ass want to judge me then like I said once before fuck his bitch ass and everything he stand for.

I was sitting in the living room listening to ‘Not Gon Cry’ by Mary J. while sipping a cup of water wondering where I went wrong in life. A man just doesn’t get it I swear they don’t, you can give a man your all mold him into a responsible person and get him out of his mother house. Cook for him, massage his feet and after standing on them all day, give him the best head he will ever receive, show him all the attention, and most importantly bring give him something that no woman as ever given him. At the end of the day he still won’t appreciate shit you do for him. I gave Cash everything since we were kids my virginity included and all he did was shit on me with other females. The one moment I try to enjoy life and have a boyfriend than he would notice me only to get up and go to the next bitch yet again.

I never meant to hurt him or anyone else for that matter. Plenty days I sat up in bed crying praying God saw fit for me to one day go get my child, and he did just that even though I wanted to make sure all the mess on the streets got cleared up first he felt I was ready and who am I do go against him. I just was hurt over the words Cash spoke to me in the park. I’ve only slept with him so how could he ask me such a thing. I had thoughts about getting an abortion but who am I kidding I don’t believe in them so that’s out the question. The best thing for me to do is fall to bending knees and just thank God for a second chance.

KNOCK!

KNOCK!

KNOCK!

I knew who was at the door because when I turned my phone on he was still texting me then once he saw I wasn’t going to reply he started calling me. I didn’t have time for him to bash me or tell me how bad of a parent I was in my face. If he wanted to bring me to court then we would do just that. Everything was always my fault when he came to Cash and his actions. Him fucking another bitch was my fault, so I just feel the best thing for me to do is stay away from his psychotic ass.

“So you just gon sit there while I knock on the door”

I damn near jumped out of my skin when he walked in here but I played it off. I had to admit though he was standing there looking so damn good I wanted to fuck the shit out of him while he stood right there. I quickly turned my head though and continued sipping on my water.

“Remind me to get my locks change in the morning.” I said without even looking at him.

“Now you drinking while you pregnant”

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