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“A while back but I always put make up on it to hide it” She said and went into the bathroom to handle her hygiene and like promised we were on our way out the door to look for houses. When we got to Kyra car she had a note on the windshield. I was confused because no one really knew where I laid my head especially with the type of work I did. I picked up the note first and read it

When are you going to let him know?

That’s all the note read. I didn’t have time for games so I just gave her the note and got in the car. I watched as she grabbed her phone and took a picture of it. She typed something and I’m assuming sent it to someone. I just sat back in my seat and watched as she nervously looked around before getting in the car. I just hope she didn’t bring any drama around me and my shit I couldn’t afford a war. I didn’t even ask what it was about because soon she would tell me what was going on and I hope it wasn’t too late when she did. One thing for sure what’s done in the dark will always come to the light.

Chapter Seventeen

KYRA

I was shaking in my shoes. Only family and 1 other person knew my secret I was hiding from Cash and from the handwriting on the note I knew my eyes wasn’t deceiving me that night. I was terrified and didn’t understand what the hell was going on the rest of the day, but we still managed to find a nice ass mansion ducked off on nothing but land I fell in love at first sight. Cash paid the house out in full, but before we moved in I needed to get to the bottom of what was going on.

Since reading that note Cash hadn’t said much to me which was understandable. I knew he was trying to put everything together in his head and soon I would tell him what’s going on, but right now I needed to figure everything out. I hid this secret from Cash for so long I knew he would hate my guts. I live under the roof with his brother and he didn’t even know my little secret.

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I pulled up to Dreka house and called for her to come outside. I didn’t want anyone to overhear our conversation and get the wrong impression; I had to talk with my sister about everything first. I really should’ve been at home with Cash telling him the real reason I left the hood back then. But to be honest I long ago put the real reason I left the hood in the back of my mind and moved on. Though often times I beat myself I didn’t want Cash to find out my real reason for leaving. I looked at mybig sister coming outside and I had to admit even though my mama was a drunk she made some beautiful daughters.

I ran everything down to Dreka even about the car being parked in front my house and Keem house that night. I just didn’t get it though how someone could just drop off the face of the earth then come back blackmailing me. From my understanding he wanted to divorce he didn’t want want me I gave what he wanted.

“Son I knew I wasn’t tripping when I told you I knew the eyes of my shooter.”

“You think it was him?”

“I know it was”

“Remember I told you about the black car that was following me around everywhere?” I asked Dreka and she nodded her head “Well one day I got a good look at the driver and I could’ve sworn it was him but I hadn’t seen him in over a year so I shrugged it off thinking I was tripping”

“You know you have to tell him before he find out on his own right?” just as I was getting ready to answer a delivery truck pulled up and a man got out with flowers in his hands.

“Dreka Wright?” Dreka called the man over and signed the papers.

I knew it wasn’t Keem because he was in the house and that nigga wasn’t the type to send flowers. I was about to ask my sister what type of games she was playing but from the look on her face I knew just then the same person was sending subliminal messages her way too. She took the envelope out the flowers and opened she pulled out what looked to be a picture and looked up at me.

“What the fuck?” she screamed as she handed me the picture.

Tears formed in my eyes looking at her sitting outside swinging made me think about the day she was born. She had a head full of jet black hair and her eyes were the same color as Cash eyes. I named her Paisley Mikelle Payne and asked my aunt on my dad side not to change it and she promised she wouldn’t. Over the years she would send me pictures and even keep me updated with what was going on.

Just like my dad my aunt did whatever to protect us. She took Pai in soon as I had her and promised me whenever I was ready I could come get her. I was going to do just that but I had to think of a way to tell Cash and quick I didn’t want to wait until it was too late. But I know that I was pushed for time because for some strange reason Keith was back and he wasn’t playing nice. I knew him just leaving was too good to be true he always did have a little attitude problem; he had never hit me but sometime I thought he would come close.

“You have to tell him quick, Ky this bitch aint playing fair. Tell him before he find out another way.”

“I will sis I’ll call you when I make it home.” I said before jumping in my car to call my dad

“Hello” hearing my dad voice made me feel like a little girl again

“Hi, dad it’s me Kyra”

“Girl I know who this is” he said with a light chuckle

“How is Paisley doing?”

“She’s fine, Kyra! When are you are to tell Cash about her and come get her. She needs to know who her mom is, baby. She’s about to be 7 years old and haven’t been in your company yet.”

“That’s why I was calling dad once I get settled in my new house I was thinking about coming get her.” I said

I heard the excitement in my dad voice; I know all he ever wanted was for me daughter to be with me. But I needed to get myself straight first. I talked to him a little while longer and decided to send a text out to Mina and Dreka telling them dinner at my house. I didn’t text Onika because she didn’t know my secret and I didn’t want her to find out this way, but once I told Keem and Cash I would be sure to tell her. I just needed to talk with her in private we were best friends and it was already bad enough I had up and left her years ago. But I had never told her why I really left.

I was young and Cash wasn’t trying to be with only me he was trying to be with every chick on the block. I couldn’t raise her by myself and once Dreka moved I was really alone. The day I told her what was going on she sent for me. Keem was there but not even he knew my secret; I was hiding my pregnancy really well. The day I had her my aunt was at the hospital to take her home. My mother knew and as much as she hated us I was surprised she didn’t run her mouth a long time ago. I did a damn good job at hiding it from him but I knew this day was going to come I just wasn’t prepared for it to come so soon.

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