“I might’ve said that at one point or another.”
“So, why don’t you apply it to your own life?” He pops open another cookie, and all I can think about while he’s licking the icing is what else his tongue could be doing right now.
“Because… I just can’t.”
“Yeah, sure. You say that, but why?”
I roll my bottom lip into my mouth before blowing out a deep breath. “I guess it’s because I always had to know what was going on. When Mom got sick the second time, I was in my teens. I had to balance school and her appointments because she couldn’t keep track of it all.”
“And now you feel like you have to know exactly what’s going on.” He looks at me, understanding shining in his eyes. “Mia, are you a closet control freak?”
I laugh and shake my head. ‘You know that’s not me.”
“I know. It drives me insane at times. You seem so at peace with everything around you, and most of the time I just want to explode.”
“You seem so calm.”
“A façade that I put on for the benefit of those around me.” He holds out a cookie to me, and I take it. “I think you just need to ride out the rest of the season, and then you can find out what’s going to happen with your life after that.”
“Maybe.” I take a bite into the cookie. “Actually, you know what? You’re right. I’m going to make the most of the season, and then I’ll figure out everything after.”
He chuckles. “I can see in your eyes that you don’t mean that.”
“Nope. I’m probably going to spend the rest of the season worrying about what to do when my life stops being on hold, and then after that, who knows.”
I sure as hell don’t.
But maybe Aiden is right, and I don’t have to figure it out right now. Maybe there is time to sit back and just enjoy life for a while.
If I’m with him, I think it’ll be easy.
CHAPTER 12
AIDEN
Rosie kicks in the door to my room way too early in the morning, Ryder trailing behind her.
I groan and roll over, pulling my pillow over my head and trying to muffle it all out. “Go away. It’s too early for whatever the hell the two of you are going to do.”
Rosie sighs. “We need to have a roomie meeting, which means that you need to get your butt out of bed and into the living room right now.”
“Or… I could stay right here since it’s one of my two days off.” I pull the blanket up over my head, holding it tight when a light tugging starts.
“No can do,” Ryder says. “I’ve been told that I’m welcome to do whatever it takes to get you out of this bed, and I’m going to do just that.”
Rosie claps her hands together. “Come on, let’s go. Get up and out of bed and get your butt on the couch because Icannotkeep listening to you and Mia banging it out every night. Not when theonly place either of you wants to get romantic when the rest of us are sleeping is the couch.”
I smirk beneath the covers, my cheeks burning hot at the same time. “We put a blanket down.”
“Oh, God!” Ryder stops tugging on the blanket. “Not this blanket. Tell me that this wasn’t the blanket on the couch last night.”
“If I tell you that it wasn’t, will you get the hell out of here so I can at least put pants on?” I push back the blankets enough to look at them.
Ryder gags and looks at Rosie. “I say we give him half an hour to get everything together, and then we can have the meeting.”
Rosie sighs, and the quiet tap of her foot against the floor tells me that she’s less than impressed, but finally it stops. “That’s fine, but you better be out there, Aiden. I’m not going to go to put all the effort into putting forward my best lecture ever without you being out there to listen to it.”
I nod and link my hands together behind my head, staring up at the ceiling as they disappear from the room. The longer I lay there and stare, the less I want to get out of bed and go hear what they have to say. When I signed on for the season, I thought I was going to have roommates who left me alone for the most part. I thought it was going to be a couple months of silence and going about my job.