my mother tried to sit me down and tell me all the ways
she was planning on uprooting my life again.
“Tell me, Laine, have you spoken to Father Robert
about getting involved with the youth group?” Mother asks
through a mouth full of crunchy Wheat O’s.
“Yes, he says he’s happy to have me, and since I’m a
senior, I’ll make for a good mentor to the younger kids.” I
parrot back to her exactly what Father Robert told me. “Good! I’ve also been speaking with the other moms,
and one of them has a son in your grade who’s in the
youth group. I want you to meet him, and he can guide you
in this position. He’s been at Holy Trinity since preschool.” “Mother, it’s okay. I can handle some kids on my
own.”
“It’s not just handling, hija! You’re new to the church
and the school. He knows how things are run.” A smirk
grows across her face. “Plus, he’s a cutie!”
I scoff and get up to clean my dish, wanting this
conversation to end as soon as possible.
I don’t need a reminder of the future son-in-law I’m
potentially robbing my mother of by being with Drew. “Go shower and wear something nice! We are meeting
with him and his mother today.” Mother calls after me as I
try to escape to my room.
When I get to my room, I pick up my phone and
long-press the side button until the logo contrasts too
bright against the black screen. I’ve been turning my phone
off recently to clear my head, and I figured that maybe
turning it off and focusing on my art project would also
turn off the overbearing thoughts that linger in my head. Unfortunately, I’ve found that switching off my phone
and giving my mind complete silence only amplifies the
buzzing of unwanted thoughts.
When the screen lights up, I see a missed call from