Page 139 of A Soul to Guide

Raewyn was game.

Walls didn’t need to be broken, not when she could use her wiles and sweetness to get him to lower them himself. That, or she could just crash-tackle him by climbing to the top and forcing him to catch her when she took the metaphorical plunge.

That’s it! I’ve decided!She slapped her hands against the stone bench, wincing when she hurt her palms.I will come to regret it if I don’t discover what it’s like to have sex with a Duskwalker. For scientific reasons, I have to know.

She really couldn’t call herself a scientist if she didn’t experiment... right?

It was really every excuse she could give herself to gain the courage of what she knew she must do. If Merikh wasn’t going to strap on his big-boy panties and try to touch her, it meant she had to lower her non-existent ones for him.

It was mainly that his cock felt so good rubbing against her clit that she justhadto know if it was even better inside her. She’d wanted it in the forest; she’d even gotten turned on by him.

Raewyn cupped her chin as she began to scheme.Okay... so how do I start this with him?Obviously, she was going to do this today, before she let her nerves change her mind.

She went to her designated shelf. Merikh had emptied it for her so she had a place for her clothes – he hadn’t even asked her, he’d just kindly done it.

Going through each article of clothing, she tried to find something enticing. They were all boring and long.Ugh, none of these feel like they would be nice or sexy.

She grabbed her sleep dress, since it was silker than the others, and just hoped it was a nice colour. She took a pair of scissors to it so she could shorten it, as well as make an actual neckline that wasn’t almost to her throat.

It feels like it was made for an old grandma.

Now that she was done brutalising her clothing, she needed to have a bath to help with her nervousness. Also, his nose was so freaking good that she was self-conscious if she didn’t smell nice.

Raewyn tied her hair up to stop it from getting wet before she slid into the lake. It was warmer than the air, and she soaked it in as she turned to place her cleaning products on land. There was only one section of the lake where she felt comfortable bathing, since it was shallow enough to come to her waist.

She didn’t know where Merikh was, nor did she any other time she’d bathed. Since the first time she’d done so at his home, she’d secretly hoped he’d been watching.

I bet he’s not though. Coward.

Once she was clean, she hopped out of the water and donned her, hopefully, enticing sleep dress.

She’d meant to cut it so it would sit mid-thigh rather than down to her ankles. Unfortunately, she’d never been a good seamstress, and she’d made it so short it barely covered her backside.

She should have gone longer and cut incrementally rather than just taking a pair of razor scissors to it.

It was her first mistake of the... evening? She didn’t know what time of day it was, since Earth’s sun cycle threw her off completely and she still hadn’t adjusted.

No matter her mistake, she wouldn’t let that hiccup stop her.

She did begin to rethink her choice at the second hiccup of the evening. She’d been planning to present herself on the bed in some kind of pose, but Merikh was already inside the cave. He must have heard her coming, since he was doing his vibration for her.

It was in that moment she knew she was the most awkward person she’d ever met. Okay, so she’d also never gone this far to have sex with someone, but she was willing to try.

She placed her cleaning products on the ground and her cane as well.

Unsure of what else to do, she played with her hair to make sure it was framing her face. Then she felt for the rocky entrance. When she found it, she put her arm above her head and leaned her elbow and side against it while crossing her ankles.

“H-hello there,” she attempted to rasp, except it got clogged in her throat. Her greeting wasn’t as sensual as she’d hoped.

He grunted in return. A few unsteady heartbeats later, since she’d fumbled this completely already and was internally panicking, two yellow sparks flashed.

“What the hell are you wearing?” he asked in disbelief. “I just bought that for you, and I cannot go back to a village to get you a new one.”

Embarrassed, she accidentally stumbled forward when her elbow slipped.

She hadn’t considered he’d be upset that she cut up the clothing he’d given her. No, it was hers, and if he didn’t like what she did with it, then that was his problem.

With how things were going so far, she thought about abandoning her entire plan. Then she dug deep, remembering he was only being curt and grumpy because of what she’d learned.

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