Page 59 of Playing with Fire

Xavier's expression softened for just a moment before he took my hand, leading me toward the bed. There, Xavier pulled me down beside him onto the soft mattress. He retrieved lube and a condom from the nightstand drawer, setting them on the bed between us. There was something almost ceremonial in the way he arranged them, a deliberate acknowledgment of what we were about to do.

"Remember what I showed you last time?" he asked, his voice rough at the edges.

I nodded, my throat tight. Last time had been a revelation—Xavier guiding my fingers, showing me exactly how he liked to be touched, how to work him open, how to find that spot inside him that made even his iron control slip for a second.

"Show me," he said, leaning back against the pillows. It wasn't a command exactly, more like an invitation, but with Xavier, everything had that edge of authority.

My hands were shaking as I grabbed the lube, warming it between my fingers the way he'd taught me. Xavier watched me with those intense eyes that always made me feel like he could see right through me. He reached up and brushed my hair back from my forehead, a surprisingly gentle gesture from someone who usually calculated every touch.

I settled between his legs, completely fucking mesmerized by the sight of him. His tattoos—the ones I'd spent years secretly staring at—were all on display, from the health bar over his heart to the gaming icons scattered across his ribs. I hesitated for a second, still not quite believing I was allowed to touch him like this.

"Touch me," he said, his voice lower now. "I'm yours tonight too, you know."

Fuck. Hearing Xavier Laskin say he was mine, even for one night, sent a surge of heat straight to my dick. I leaned down and pressed my lips to his health bar tattoo, then worked my way down his chest. His breathing picked up, his fingers threading through my hair as I kissed my way across all the ink I'd dreamed about touching for years.

I circled his entrance with slick fingers, adding just enough pressure to make him feel it. Xavier was watching me, eyes dark and focused in a way that would've been intimidating if it wasn't so fucking hot.

"That's it," he said as I pushed one finger inside. The tight heat around my finger made my dick throb in sympathy, and I had to bite my lip to keep focused.

When I curled my finger just the way he'd taught me, Xavier's whole body tensed up, and his cock twitched, a bead of pre-cum forming at the tip. Holy shit. I'd made that happen. Me. The sight of Xavier responding to my touch was like every fantasy I'd ever had come to life.

Without thinking, I leaned forward and licked the drop of pre-cum off the head of his cock before it could bother him. The taste hit my tongue—bitter, a little salty-sweet, and completely, unmistakably Xavier. I'd never tasted another guy before, and something about having this part of Xavier in my mouth, on my tongue, felt right. Spiritual, almost.

His hand fisted in my hair, almost painful but not quite. When I looked up, his eyes were wide, pupils blown, and his usual perfect control was just... gone.

"Fuck," he gasped, sounding wrecked in a way I'd never heard before. "Leo, do that again."

I tentatively leaned forward, hesitating just inches from Xavier's cock. "Like this?" I asked, giving the head a few kittenish licks. My eyes locked on his face to gauge his reaction.

Xavier's entire body went rigid, a sound escaping him that I'd never heard before—half growl, half gasp. His hand in my hair alternated between pushing me away and pulling me closer, like he couldn't decide which he wanted more.

"Don't stop," he finally managed, voice strained in a way that sent a thrill through me. "More fingers. Need you inside me."

I added a second finger alongside the first, biting off a moan at the sight of him stretched around me. Xavier's usual control was cracking. His hips were moving against my hand, asking for more without words. Watching him surrender even that tiny bit of control felt like I'd been given something rare and precious.

"Fuck, you're incredible like this," I whispered, a little awestruck by his trust.

His eyes locked onto mine, something raw and exposed in them. "Only for you," he admitted, the words hanging heavy between us. "Only ever for you."

I scissored my fingers like he'd taught me, watching his body open up for me. Another drop of pre-cum appeared. I leaned down and lapped at it gently, swirling my tongue around the head of his cock while my fingers continued their careful exploration.

Xavier practically came off the bed, making this sound that was half growl, half moan. His hands came up to hold my face, surprisingly gentle even as his body tensed with pleasure.

"Your mouth," he managed, voice breaking. "Fuck, the way you look right now—"

I hummed against him, experimenting, and he shuddered hard. The knowledge that I could do this to Xavier—that I could make him lose his famous control—was the biggest rush I'd ever felt. I committed every reaction to memory, every hitch in his breath, every tiny movement of his hips.

When I worked a third finger in, Xavier's eyes fluttered shut, his head falling back against the pillows. That gesture of surrender, coming from someone who controlled every aspect of his life, hit me right in the chest.

"I'm ready," he said, fingers stroking through my hair with surprising gentleness. "Want you inside me when I come."

I carefully pulled my fingers out, grabbing the condom with hands that wouldn't stop shaking. Xavier watched through half-lidded eyes as I rolled it on, his gaze making my skin feel too tight, too hot.

"Come here," he said, arms opening for me.

I positioned myself at his entrance, the head of my cock pressing against him. This was it, the point of no return. Everything changed once I pushed forward, once I was inside Xavier.

"Wait," he said, hands coming up to hold my face. His eyes burned into mine, serious and intense. "I want you to know this means something. You giving me your first time like this." His voice got rougher, more emotional than I'd ever heard it. "I'm going to take care of you, Leo. I promise."

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