Page 29 of In Her Shadow

“When are you gonna realize that I’m not scared of you, Ren? I’m scared of myself.” She’s got tears in her eyes, and the years of pain and self-doubt that are behind them break my heart. “I’m scared that I’m getting swept up in something that isn’t real. I don’t know you, and you keep shutting me out. I’m not myself when I’m with you. I lose all sense of caution. I do wild, reckless things, and I’m scared that I’m going to push myself too far. The one thing I’mnotafraid of is you.”

I look down at her flat, little tummy and feel my cock twitch inside her when I think about making it swell.

“You should be scared of me, Kitten,” I start to thrust hard inside her, fisting her hair and looking down at how beautiful she looks as she takes me. “You should have fucking ran when I told you to, because I’m never gonna let you go, not now.” Instead of looking worried, she smiles at me, and it makes me seriously doubt this girl’s sanity. Does she not believe me? Does she think all this is a game? Maybe she’ll realize that she was wrong to doubt me when she finds out she’s growing my child inside her, but by then it will be too late.

For all I know, it already could be.

“I like how that sounds.” She keeps that beautifully naïve smile on her face, and it makes me want to rip my heart out of my chest and put it inside hers. She’s owned it since the first day I saw her. She’s owned every fucking part of me and now I’m owning her in a way that can’t be reversed.

“You like how it sounds, huh?” I sit up on my knees, keeping my cock rooted deep inside her and her legs wrapped aroundmy hips. Keeping her thighs spread wide, I pump inside her hard and fast, watching her tits bounce. “You wanna be mine forever?” I slide my hands up to her waist, my nails digging into her flesh as I keep thrusting, and there’s nothing hesitant about the nod she gives me back.

“Then stop being scared of what this is. Stop doubting yourself, and accept that this is real.” I shock her when I smack my fingers against her sensitive flesh, and her pussy locks me inside it like a vice.

“You like that?” I massage the sting I must have caused, gently, and watch as she starts to relax again.

“I like it all. I like everything you give me, Ren.” She lifts the top half of her body up to kiss me, and I meet her halfway, sliding my still-wrapped hands past her ears and cradling her head between them.

“Then we’re done trying to be normal, right?” I take her lip between my teeth before she can answer, biting down hard enough to taste her blood as she nods her reply.

“Fuck, you taste good, Kitten. So fucking good.” I’ve never tasted anyone else's blood before, I’ve never fucking wanted to. But nothing is ever enough with Eloise. I want to share every part of her, and now that I’ve got that taste of it, I can’t get enough.

“Ren, I’m coming,” she warns, sliding her hands over my chest. Her nails dig deep, into my flesh, clawing it open and drawing blood as I fuck her harder, and watch my pretty, little kitten come for me.

I want to tell her all my plans for us. I want to let her know that every time I come inside her pussy, I’m hoping that it knocks her up, but I don’t think she’s ready for that yet. It’ll just have to be a surprise.

“Lie back.” I wait for her to rest her shoulders back on the mattress before taking her hands and pinning them above herhead. I stare deep into her sparkling, green eyes as my cock slides with such ease, in and out of her soaked-wet snatch.

“I promise you're gonna thank me for this,” I tell her, thrusting hard one last time and spilling everything into her. I growl like an animal as I hold still and steady, feeling my cum pump into her as she smiles up at the ceiling.

We both remain silent while we catch our breath, and when I brush her hair back off her face and smile at her, she starts to laugh.

“Ren, are we crazy?” she asks.

“Tell me what happened.” I turn serious on her, because downstairs she promised to tell me.

“I think you know what happened.” She closes her eyes, and when I feel her starting to drift away from me, I quickly pull her back.

“Open your eyes. Look at me,” I order, surprised by how quickly she responds.

“I’m tired, Ren, it’s been a long day. I really don’t want to talk about it, especially not after that.”

“You want me to go?” I frown, hating the idea of going back to the warehouse and watching her through the window or a laptop screen.

“No, I want you to stay. I want you to hold me while I sleep, and I want you to be here in the morning. It’s needy and it’s desperate, but?—”

“I want that, too.” I cut her off before she starts to freak out.

“Close your eyes, Kitten. Go to sleep.”

“Like this?” She looks down to where my cock is still hard and sheathed inside her.

“Can you think of a better way to go to sleep?” I smirk back at her playfully.

“Not one.” She smiles as I lower my head and rest it in the crook of her neck, and when her fingers start to play with my hair, I close my eyes and take comfort in how it feels.

“You know the police think it’s me,” her voice blurts out a few seconds later. She doesn’t bother to explain what she’s talking about because my girl is no fool. I can distract her and try to avoid the truth as much as I want…but she knows.

“I’ll fix it,” I promise her.

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