Page 24 of Loving Taylor
Unable to talk, she nodded, looking up at me nervously. Trying to distract her, I kissed her again as I began to enter her as gently as I could, hoping to keep any pain she would feel at a minimum.
"Are you sure?" I asked, feeling the strain of keeping my control, which was hanging on by a thread. Instead of answering, she pushed onto me as she kissed me.
God, she felt so good. Her warmth enveloped me. Her breath hitched when I pushed through the barrier of her innocence.
"Are you okay?" I stilled. I wasn't sure how much pain I had caused.
"It's okay," she said.
With the last of my restraint I eased out and reentered her as slowly as I could. She seemed to adjust to me and I increased the tempo slightly.
When she wrapped her legs around me, I lost the last of my control. I grabbed her hands to hold them above her and began to thrust into her faster, needing to bury myself to the hilt.
The headboard began to bang against the wall but I couldn't slow down even if I wanted to. I was so close but I was determined to make her come again before I did.
She was so damn tight. Her body quivered and tensed. She was close. She bit her lip as she reached her peak. I pushed into her, needing my own release, and trembled as I spilled into her. My breathing was rapid as I rode the rush I craved.
Afterward I was still trying to catch my breath but she lay unmoving, our bodies still intertwined. I kissed her before I rested my forehead against hers.
I knew we would be good together, the chemistry between us foretold that. But that had been the best sex of my life—and with a virgin. I still couldn't wrap my mind around it.
"For your first time, you were pretty awesome," I told her.
She gave me a smile that pulled at something in my chest. It was the first time she didn't have the nervousness or anxiousness for the unknown. She looked satisfied and relaxed. And I had to admit I liked seeing her like this, especially in my bed.
"You weren't too bad yourself," she shot back, making me laugh. I shifted off her, needing to get rid of the condom. I walked to my bathroom and discarded it.
When I joined her back in my bed I lay beside her. I pulled the covers over her. Physically I was satisfied and tired. It had been an amazing night but after such an intense experience, I was exhausted. And there was nothing better than falling asleep with her beside me.
She'd done it again. I was annoyed. Twice I had woken up to find the spot beside me empty. She had left while I had slept.
I don't know why it made me feel the way it did. If it had been any other girl, I would have been relieved. I got up and raked a hand through my messy bed-hair, trying to make sense of why I cared. It was a question I kept asking myself and so far I had failed to answer.
It didn't help my mood when I found Slater smiling at my obvious annoyance when I went to get some coffee.
"Don't."
"I didn't say a word," he told me, holding his hands up. I ignored him.
He didn't have to. I knew what he was probably thinking. I felt like my whole axis had been shifted and I was still trying to figure out where I was. Lost. That's exactly how I felt. In a world I had never been in before.
I got a mug and set it down so forcefully it banged against the counter. I was losing control and I didn't like it one bit. It reminded me of a time when I'd had no control over my life and that had been the scariest time of my life.
After making some coffee I took a gulp, burning my mouth slightly but at least it distracted me from whatever was going on inside my chest.
Quietly, Slater watched me from the doorway. I bet he was trying to work out what was wrong with me.
"What time did she leave?" I finally asked. I didn't want to ask but something compelled me, reinforcing my lack of control in the current situation.
Our night was over. Her virginity was gone and I'd had the best sex of my life. I didn't do more. She hadn't stayed and made the morning after uncomfortable.
So what exactly is the problem?I asked myself.
"Four a.m."
I shot him a raised eyebrow, alarmed that she had left in the dark. Didn't she know it wasn't safe for a girl to walk around when it was dark?
"I walked her back to her dorm," Slater revealed, much to my relief.
