Page 110 of Loving Taylor
What I felt for Taylor wasn't like that. I knew it was deep and emotional but I didn't know if I loved her. I wasn't even sure if I was capable of it.
I had to be honest with her even if I didn’t know how she was going to take it. I turned to face her and let out a sigh, knowing this could hurt her, but I couldn’t say something I didn't mean.
"I want to be able to say those words to you and mean them. Most people know what love means because they've experienced it, but I haven't." I paused. "That doesn't mean, though, that you aren't the most important person in my life. I will do everything I can to make you happy and keep you safe."
Holding her gaze, I touched her cheek. She looked a little sad and it made me feel guilty for not being able to say the three little words she wanted me to say to her.
"I'm sorry I can't say it to you," I admitted, not sure what else I could say.
Then I waited for her reaction. She didn't look away or get angry. Instead she said, "You don't have to say the words." She kissed me briefly. "It doesn't change what we have together."
No, it didn't. She was everything I wanted and needed. And I would prove that to her every day we had together.
