Page 62 of Loving Bad
Could I blame him? The answer was no. I hadn't given him a chance to explain anything, I'd just told him to leave. I put my phone back down and went into the bathroom. In the shower I let some of my sadness spill out in tears that streamed down with the water. I was feeling emotionally exhausted by the time I got out of the shower and got dressed.
My phone beeped. I'd received a message. Subconsciously I held my breath as I walked over to pick up my phone. I was so used to the feeling of disappointment that I was momentarily shocked that it was a message from Sin.
I'm sorry.
Two simple words that gave me hope. For several moments I took the words in and then they spurred me into action. I got dressed as fast as I could and shoved my phone into my jeans. Matthew was still watching the girlie movie in the living room with Jordan who was still trying to get to the bottom of the tub of ice cream.
"I need to go," I said to him.
"You're not going anywhere without me," he told me as he stood up. "Can't it wait till tomorrow?"
I shook my head. I'd wasted enough time and I wasn't going to waste any more. My decision was made and I just hoped that I wasn't too late.
"Will you be okay here on your own?" I asked Jordan.
"I'll be fine. I have enough ice cream and I have TV," she said, trying to make light of her heartbreak.
"So where are we off to?" Matthew asked as we walked to the car.
"I need to talk to Sin," I said as he opened the passenger side for me. He studied me for a moment before he shrugged.
"Okay."
Maybe it was the determined look that told him there was no talking me out of what I'd set out to do. I knew how precious life was and wasting any time was wrong.
Nervously, I fidgeted as Matthew made the short trip to Sin's house. I didn't ask how he knew where Sin lived. I assumed my brother had given him the same folder he'd given me on Sin. I was unsure of how Sin was going to react to my sudden visit and I felt the nervous knot in my stomach twist as I got out of the car. Matthew got out of the driver's side.
"No," I said to him as firmly as I could. "I need to do this without you."
"It's my job to keep you safe," he reminded me in a serious tone.
"I'll be safe with Sin," I assured him. "I will call you if I need you."
He looked to the house and then back to me.
"No," he stated. "I can't stay out here while you go inside."
We had a stare down for a few seconds before I threw my hands up in the air in frustration.
"Fine," I bit out.
I needed to talk to Sin, but I was scared that he would close up if he saw Matthew. I had no choice. Matthew followed me up the stairs and he stood beside me as I rang the doorbell.
I bit my lip as I felt the nervous knot in my stomach tighten at Sin's reaction to seeing me and Matthew. His reaction to Matthew when he'd seen him in the apartment hadn't been good and I had a feeling he wouldn't react well to seeing him with me now. I just hoped he would let me explain who Matthew was and why he had to go where I went.
I heard some noise behind the door and then the door opened.
