Page 20 of Loving Bad
"Your friend invited me to a party and I came to let loose and have a little fun. What I do and who I do it with is none of your business."
I made a move to walk past him, but he stopped me.
"I'm not trying to lecture you. It's just there are bad people out there, and you just seem so naive," he tried to explain as he ran a hand through his hair.
"I was talking to your friend," I reminded him. I couldn't understand why he was acting the way he was.
"Slater and I are not good guys," he stated cryptically. Our eyes held for a few moments in silence. His tongue flickered against his lip ring.
"I asked you to have sex with me and you told me no. That doesn't mean you get to tell me what to do," I explained. It was hard to not let my eyes drop to his tongue playing with his lip ring. I felt a flutter in my stomach as I gave him one last look before I tried to walk past him again but he grabbed my wrist gently, and I turned to face him.
"I changed my mind."
I looked at him with confusion for a moment.
"I want to take advantage of you," he whispered, the intensity of his gaze making my stomach flip.
"In a sober state," he finished as his eyes flickered to my lips as he took a step closer to me. I couldn't believe he'd changed his mind. I felt excited as I thought about what that entailed for a moment. Then I remembered the horrible sinking feeling when he'd turned me down.
"Who says the offer is still on the table?" I said, trying to stay calm even though I felt a shiver of excitement at the way he was looking at me. I had little experience with guys, so I had no idea how to handle Sin. He was lethal when he wanted something, and it seemed that he now wanted me.
Instead of answering me as I expected, he backed me up against the wall and I looked up at him nervously as he put his arms out against the wall on either side of me, effectively caging me in. For a moment his eyes held mine, then his eyes flickered to my lips. He leaned closer, and I felt a nervous shiver through me as I waited for him to kiss me. I'd never been kissed before.
The moment his lips touched mine, I swear I felt my knees quiver as I closed my eyes. The gentle pressure of his lips against mine made everything else around us disappear, and all that mattered was what he was doing to me. The kiss intensified as his tongue swept into my mouth. His tongue glided against mine as I opened my mouth wider. Unsure of what to do, I just followed his lead. The soft touch of his lip ring against my lips was strange at first, but as he kissed me harder, I forgot about it.
All thoughts fled from my mind as he wrapped his arms around me and moved his tongue against mine. His body pressed mine against the wall as my hands snaked around his neck and pulled him closer to me. I swear I felt the earth move. Then his mouth was gone, and I opened my eyes to stare up into his. I was still dazed, and he smirked at me. I was breathing hard, and so was he. There was no disputing it: I wanted him, and he wanted me.
"Tomorrow night," he stated as he reached out and caressed my cheek lightly with his knuckles.
"You've been drinking tonight, and I want you to be sober," he explained as his eyes held mine. I felt my stomach dip at his words.
"Go back downstairs and enjoy the rest of the party," he told me. "Meet me here tomorrow night."
I felt my head nod in agreement. He studied me for a moment before he pressed his lips to mine again. I left him in his room and went back downstairs. The curious looks followed me back to Slater and Jordan.
"What was that about?" Jordan asked loudly enough for me to hear over the music.
"It's complicated," I replied. I wasn't sure if I wanted to tell her what was happening between Sin and me. She wouldn't approve.
"I don't think he's done with you," Slater whispered into my ear and I gave him an awkward smile. There was no way I was going to say anything to Slater.
For the rest of the night, I enjoyed myself. I kept looking for Sin, but I never saw him again that evening.
Later when I was back in my dorm room with Jordan, she broached the subject. I let out a sigh.
"Look, I know that you don't approve, but... I'm going to give my virginity to Sin," I blurted out to her before I could change my mind. She looked at me liked I'd grown an extra head. I held up my hand because I knew what was coming next. She was going to lecture me on how bad Sin was.
"Look, it's not like I want to date or have a relationship with him. I just want to experience sex and lose my virginity. Who better to lose it to than someone who has had a lot of practice?" I argued.
"I just don't want him to hurt you," she tried to explain.
"I know you don't and he won't. It's only going to be one night," I insisted.
"Okay," she said, taking me by surprise. I hadn't expected her to say that.
That night I was restless and spent most of the night tossing and turning. The next day dragged. Time ticked by slowly and I tried to keep myself busy. I worked on an assignment, but my mind was preoccupied, and it was impossible to concentrate.
I showered and shaved my legs. It took me nearly an hour of trying to decide what to wear. I debated whether it would be better to wear a dress or not. Finally, I decided to go with a pair of jeans and a blue button-up top. The later it got, the more nervous I became.
