Page 14 of Loving Bad
"Hi..." I said. I threw a glance at the three pairs of eyes that were watching us from the living room. Sin's eyes took our audience in.
"We can talk upstairs," he suggested, shaking his head at his friends’ inability to give us privacy.
I quietly followed him up the stairs and to his bedroom. Once inside, I couldn't help thinking the last time I'd left it I had never thought I would be back here again. Sin closed the door and turned to face me. One moment of silence turned into two while I wrestled with my words. He cocked his head to the side and studied me.
"You don't have to be nervous," he said as he stepped closer.
If I was nervous before I was even more nervous now standing in front of him. Up close with his eyes on me made me feel so aware of him and I struggled to put together the words I wanted to say.
"I wanted to...ask...you," I stuttered under his intense gaze.
"What do you want to ask me?" he said, standing confidently in front of me. I swallowed.
I couldn't exactly say, "I want to have sex with you" so instead I said, "I want to take advantage of you in a sober state."
He didn't look like the type who was easily shocked, but there was no mistaking it, he was shocked this time. He blinked and then he smirked at me.
"You want to take advantage of me?" he asked, his smirk widening into a smile.
Worried I'd stutter again, I just nodded my head. There, I'd told him what I wanted, and now the ball was in his court. I tried to meet his gaze without looking as nervous as I felt. His eyes slowly raked over me as he contemplated my request.
"I'm not one to turn down an offer like that," he began and I waited with butterflies fluttering in my stomach.
"But you don't look like you've ever taken advantage of anyone," he finished. How on earth did he know that? Was it written in my forehead?
"So what?" I said. I wasn't going to lie to him about it. He would eventually find out the truth, and I wanted him to go into this with his eyes wide open.
"As stunning as you are and as much as I’d like to take you up on your offer…" he started, and I felt my stomach begin to sink at the realization that he was turning me down.
"I don't do virgins," he finished.
"Okay," I mumbled as I tried to step around him and make a hasty departure, but he caught me by the arms.
"Find someone special to share it with," he suggested.
"No, it's fine. I'm sure I'll find someone who can help me," I replied, pulling out of his hold and getting out of his room as quickly as I could. He wasn't the only guy who could help me, and if he wasn't prepared to do it, I was sure I'd find someone who would.
