Page 110 of Tell Me What You Want, Or Leave Me

Eric

I smile immediately. I love these little gestures.

After dinner that night, Flyn takes Calamar to bed. I stay in the living room, watching TV with Susto at my feet. I’m hit by a wave of melancholia and—I can’t help it—my eyes begin to tear up. I really miss him.

Finally, I decide to call. I need to hear his voice. He picks up on the fourth ring.

“Yes, Jude.”

“I miss you.”

I hear him excusing himself.

“Love, I’m at a business dinner.”

“But I miss you.”

His warm laugh when he hears me makes me feel good.

“Go to bed and read something, or play with something in your special drawer and think of me,” he says.

“I’m still going to miss you,” I say.

Eric laughs again.

“I have to hang up, sweetheart. But in an hour, I’ll call you on Skype from my hotel room, and, if you want...we can play.”

Oooh, webcam sex?

How intense!

I’ve never experienced that.

“I’ll wait anxiously for your call,” I say, excited. “In the meantime, I’ll read.”

Knowing I’m going to talk to him soon lifts my spirits. When I hang up, it’s quarter to ten.

I turn off the television, give Susto a kiss on the head, and am about to go to my room when I stop to check in on Flyn. He’s asleep with Calamar at his feet. They’re beautiful!

I lock the door to my room.

I’m waiting for a hot, sexy, and kinky call. I brush my teeth, put on a suggestive nightgown, and get into the huge bed. It’s so expansive when Eric’s not here. Suddenly, I can smell him. The sheets. Wonderful!

I let myself fall on the side where my love sleeps, and I enjoy being surrounded by his aroma.

After I get my fill, I open my laptop and go on Facebook. I talk to my friends, the Warriors, until Skype lets me know I have a call. I say goodbye to them and accept the call. The camera connects, and I see my love.

“Hi, honey.”

“Hello, beautiful.”

It’s so strange to see Eric on a screen. I want him by my side.

“How are you, sweetheart?”

“All right, now that I can see you.”

We both smile.

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